Finally God reached in........and changed a huge chunk of my mind...... :)

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet friends,

Wow, I am simply speechless - I had the most amazing weekend......with #theloverofmysoul - all that the enemy of my soul/ego/devil/satan intended for evil, God turned it around for good......he reached in an taught me, I think, the most important lessons:

1) We are never alone, he never ever leaves us - separation is an illusion that this world makes us believe, the truth is: he never left us - thus, my beloved and I went for beautiful hikes in the kingdom of God - my daddy's playground......and had the most amazing time ever.

2) We need to switch from to expect the worst at any given moment - which is the big lie, that the enemy of our soul tortures us with - to expect the best - which is the mindset in which we can finally receive all the blessings, God has for us - for he is continously thinking up new ways in which to bless us...... - I feel as if I have reached another level of glory thanks to the guidance of the holy spirit.

Yesterday I went to a beautiful service in the church that I got married in almost 12 years ago - I believe, it was the holy spirit's way, to clear all that I still harboured in my heart as unforgiveness towards myself, that I had broken my marriage vows - he has shown me, that as long as I don't break my vow to him (#thetrinityofgod) - I am forgiven - and I have never once renounced the love of my life (#godthefatherthesonandtheholyghost) - quite the contrary is true.....I have been searching for him all my life - and yesterday the service was about the holy spirit - that he is always with me....... - I receive this gift - I recieve all that he will lead me to do, and I will live obediently forever to his calling.

This is my last blog under this title - don't worry, my friends, I will continue doing, what I love doing the most, and that is lending my voice to the spirit of God Allmighty....... - he gave me the new title already a little while ago: 'together we are strong' - this is what he taught me yesterday, as I was hiking in the Swiss Alps.....when I felt afraid, all I could think was: together we are strong and what evil could befall me in the paradise/the garden of eden, that my daddy so lovingly created for me - I held on tight to the iron rope.....and steadily put one foot in front of the other......and trusted - that God would lead me home safely!!!!

The view from up there was amazing and breathtakingly beautiful - will you join me in paradise, where I will keep on living in his presence forever more.

In Christ, forever yours,
Amen

Sometimes you have to simply trust and keep moving......

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Good morning my dear friends......it's simply amazing at what length the enemy goes, to make you fall - but he has no chance........my faith in the promises of God is far greater than anything he can bring before me - I know he is the father of lies - and I will not falter.

My God is sufficient for me - #theloverofmysoul is with me, wherever I go, he lives inside of me no matter what - and if the entire universe is trying to assault me with it's deceiving schemes - my faith is yet stronger.

I believe in the promises my father has given me - that I am more precious than rubies and gold - that he delights himself with singing over me.......and that he is in every single detail of my life - and if he allows the enemy to test my faith - I will always and forever say: His grace is sufficient for me and I will never ever forsake him, who holds my tomorrow.

Even if that means a life void of people, friends, even the love of my life being taken away from me - even if it means a life in poverty or sickness (even though this spell has already been broken - I am as healthy as I have never been all my life) - and I will never again fall for that lie. By his stripes I am healed. And his presence alone in my life is enough.

Even if he was to take my children or my dog or my means of living - even if I had to go and waitress in a Restaurant or any other given Job to make ends meet - I would still do it with a smile on my face - for he is with  me everystep of the way.

He made me see this great truth last night, as my plans for the weekend fell through - I have new ones now......I will spend it with him, in peace and solitude - for his peace surpasses all understanding. He is all I ever need and he is forever with me - as I said in my facebook post: It's  not about people, it's not even about relationships or circumstances - it's only and always about surrendering your life into his care, in following obediently his lead and in placing your trust unwaveringly in him at all times.

This is what I pledge my life to - He has given me so much, that I could never turn back and listen or heed the lies of the world. Nothing here in the world matters - only his everlasting love.

This I know for sure, that I have it - therefore if the world claims all that I hold dear - I will never ever let go of the hand of my daddy in heaven - I will always and forever be his beloved daughter and his precious princess. Nothing else matters.

May this truth permeate your soul - I will keep walking, with a smile on my face and my heart secure in his love, my trust forever beolongs to him.

In Christ - and Christ in me forever - Amen

Are you ready to receive all he has for you.....???

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

My friends, these last weeks have yet again opened my spiritual eyes and ears even further.....God has helped me see more and more clearly, that it truly is all in our perception - we will always only see, what is true within us - if we are bitter and critical, we will see and hear, that which corresponds to our mindset. If we are positive and encouraging towards ourselves and others, if we see potential and Blessings in and around us, we will see these things unfold before our very eyes.

When those around us are caught in negativity and criticism, it will be much much harder, to stay connected to the source of true Grace - the mindset of our savior Jesus Christ - Christ living through us, but God is always with us, and he will teach us, how to stay in his Grace and Agape love.

During these weeks away with parts of my original family, my faith in the knowledge and wisdom God has given me over the last almost 2 years, has been greatly tested - but whenever I felt doubt or fear wash over me, the spirit of God pulled me back into his promises and that what he says about me, and then I could be strong and courageous and face the world again.

Even in the face of physical assault, I didn't loose faith and stood strong in him. Thankful beyond description - somehow I feel as if another level of commitment and faith has been reached - I hear his voice even more clearly now - and the peace I have in my heart despite persecution on more than one level, is immense. #godissooogood :)

May his peace be with you at all times, in all the struggles you might face today - I know, he will lead you to a place of Joy and Peace when you are ready to receive what he has for you.

Always remember: if it's not paradise - it's not the end.
Amen

In Heaven.......or is it Hell??? In the End it's always Paradise....

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear dear friends, I am writing to you from Paradise - another 3 more days (we are leaving Sunday) to go back to the mainland.......I have found heaven here again, but I also encountered hell for a short little while - but God never ever left me, and made me see, what he sees......

So, when I encounter hell - either myself being thrown in turmoil by doubting the promises of God, or seeing people being caught in hell and negativity - my prayer is always: Lord, please open my eyes and ears to what you see and hear.....I want to see the world through your eyes, I want to hear the world through your ears always......and then he shows up and shows me - and then my world is put right side up again, and I am transported into heaven again - Praise God for his steadfast love and for his commitment to see me through to the end, when I finally can be with him for eternity.

He never quits teaching us, to see the world through his eyes, to listen to his spirit and not the spirit of the world and to learn to love him and the people around us with Christ's AGAPE love.

I am incredibly honoured by the trust he has shown me, by opening my eyes more and more to his truth and his grace - the peace that floods my heart, my soul and my mind more often than not these days, is not of this world - it's eternal.

He is calling me to speak or write his mind, and in all things to trust his guidance - and even though it's not always easy, as I am still only human, like all of us, I am getting much much better at it. Praying that you would embrace Proverbs 3 5:6 with all your heart, for as we do, our lives become divinely guided and blessed - we then can see, how he is involved in every little detail regarding our lives and that he truly uses everything for the good of those who love him - even those who don't know yet, that they, too, love him.

I will be leaving paradise in 3 days, only to keep living in heaven even in the mainland......as it is all in the perception of things, people and situations - if we allow him, to renew our minds, then he will guide and teach us, to always see the things, for what they truly are......

Will you join me in Heaven??? I sure hope to meet you there - 

Be and remain blessed forever more - your friend in Christ - Always

Amen

It's always been you - God is pursuing you in all your relationships

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my friends, here I go again, this may be the last blog for a while, as I am headed out for my summer vacation.....and as you know, from last year, I may not always have internet, or not much to say.....

Here is what I learnt the other day: God made it totally clear, that I have to let the love he fills my heart and my very soul with, flow out to those I love - I am not to hold back, even if it's such a legitimate thing as trying to protect myself, which is human nature at it's best, and human nature getting in the way of the true and perfect love, that can be found in Christ alone (Christ in your fellow man - being your lover or your friend)..... as mere humans, we want to protect our hearts from getting hurt, and hold back our love - yet, when we are completely committed to serve God, we cannot and should  not hold back.

These last weeks have been hard, because I did that - protecting myself, holding back my love, thus not being real and true to the love that was flowing through my heart......I lost my Peace and my Joy in the course of protecting myself from getting hurt. This ultimately hurt even more. - Plus, what I was afraid of didn't even happen...

Withholding your love makes you not routed in his love anymore - and the relationship with #theloverofmysoul - aka Jesus Christ, is, what fuels my day, energizes me for the task at hand....because I fell short of understanding his message - that it truly never is about the people in our life, but about his love flowing to them through us or vice versa. I was getting caught up in the drama of life again......but he wants me to look at the bigger picture at all times, that with our human eyes and distorted understanding, we will always fall short of his glory, but if we let Christ in us lead the way, Christ loving us beyond our fear of getting hurt - actually him blessing us beyond measure, if and when we keep loving those around us, the way he wants us to love them, even if we are afraid of getting hurt in the here and now - when we trust him infinitely.

There is a song by #amygrantt called Giggle - and it explains it quite nicely. I know, you are wondering, where I fell short.....well, it's regarding the relationship that I have been having over the last 3 months.....and with my imminent travels to Europe, where I will finally meet him, there were great (old) fears surfacing, that the meeting may not happen, that the chemistry would not be there - even though I highly doubt that, but mostly I feared, that he had lost interest - yet I realized, that it was me reliving some pain of my past, when the man, I thought, God had for  me, never returned for me, and when my ex husband didn't fight for our relationship..... or even when my grandmother died.

All these things I had falsely attributed to them having lost interest, or me not measuring up, me not being valuable enough..... - well, God made it clear, that this was never the case. It was his love reaching out to me through every single man/person I met throughout the years.....and it's his love reaching out to me now - and time will tell, where this relationship will go, but this time I will not quit loving, just because I am afraid I might get hurt. I know, I will be fine, no matter how it turns out.....God is in control and I am trusting him, that he knows what's best for me - I am committed to go all the way this time, and not to withdraw, when things don't go according to my plan, for his plan is bigger - and he will carry me, to where I belong.

Grateful beyond measure, that he has taught me that, and that I can see it now - his thoughts are truly not our thoughts.....that's for sure, yet I don't have to know more than what I need to keep walking by faith and not by sight. God will always love you more than you will ever grasp, and he will bring people into your life, that will love you for him, cause they are willing vessels. That's truly all that counts.

Not sure if I made sense today - I sure hope so......
Be blessed, my dear friends - may God continue to bless you always - 
Amen

Love languages - hmmmm?!?!

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear friends, in my second last post I said, I was committed to speak to my man in his love language, and I absolutely am - yet I am just realizing, that in order, to learn this love language (and that works for all types of relationships in our lives - children, coworkers, bosses, friends - really anybody we come into contact with on a more regular basis), we have to pay close attention, as to how they speak to us.....most of the times, they reveal their love language to us, through what they give us.....let's say, for someone it's giving gifts - they will give you gifts, others, it's writing you little love notes, that's most likely their love language - again others do things for you..... - when we pay attention to how people treat us, we can learn so much about, how they would like to be treated......

So my commitment goes even deeper - I pledge to learn the love language, that the people closest to me, speak, and I will speak it back to them - and I will always address the queen or the king that resides inside them - for we all desire to be seen, accepted, and appreciated. 

So far I have seen great change in my relationships, when I do that - and most relationships have gained depth in the course of it. Sometimes it also helps, to say, what you'd like to receive.....but I have noticed, that, thanks to God having healed my heart in such a deep way, that my happiness is no longer in relation to others feeding my needs through speaking my love language back to  me - even though I love it, when it's done - and then that relationship is definitely one that means a great deal to me......

I can detect this, by how my heart responds, and often time, when someone hits the right cord, my eyes well up and I shed a tear or two, or even an entire river in mere gratitude...... - you may remember, when I spoke about the special birthday I had this year - well, it was mainly, because the people spoke my love language back to me.

Ultimately it's not so hard, to learn the language of the other person - ask God, to help you to detect which one it is, and then ask him, to help you, to speak it back to the other person - you will see, that eventually things will change, and if not, maybe you have to tell the other person - I know, that we all wish, that the other person would feel or know, how we would like to be treated, but the truth is, that some are being better at reading others, than others, and some people, try very hard, but still have difficulty detecting the right one - talking sure helps. Don't walk away, if the other person doesn't speak to you in your love language......pray about it, ask God for help, in how you should could approach him or her.....and trust, that God will make a way, where there seems to be no way!!!

This whole concept just really sank from head knowledge to heart knowledge a couple of day ago, even though I read the book many years ago - the book is called the '5 Love Languages' by Gary Chapman..... - in case you are interested.

My friends, I gotta go to bed - tonight I had my first harp recital - Geez, was I ever nervous - and i missed a lever change, but people told me, that had I not made this face, that gave it away, that I messed up, nobody would have noticed.....I shall be working on that - next year will be another chance and I will then have 2 years of lessons under my belt - it was great to see and hear students of all different levels of expertise play tonight - it showed me, how I will be doing in a year or even 7 years down the road - I am so committed to this instrument.....I never thought I would be able to say that. I simply love love love the harp.

Be blessed my friends - I love you - praying that you will find out, what love language your partner, child, boss, employee, friend and spouse or significant other speaks, and that you might learn to speak to them in their respective love language......

In the powerful name of Christ I pray

Immensely blessed by 'running' into some people - #alwaysonadivineappointment

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Wow, my friends, I thought I'd share this with you - this morning consisted of 'running' into people that were not on my 'go see' list, yet the one's that were did cancel on me - gladly so, cause my schedule is already busy as can be......anyhow, two of the people I ran into had a deep word of God for me......I cannot tell you just yet, what they were, but they hold great promise on many levels - and I receive them both in faith.

I am urging you, follow your impulses, to drive a certain route over another, that you normally take, or if there is a feeling in your heart, to turn right at a traffic light, even though you are on you way somewhere and you need to go straight to get there.....you might miss out on a huge blessing God planned for you to have.

It has happened so many times over the last years, that I am ready to go pretty  much anywhere, when the spirit of God is leading me, as I have been blessed with many many gifts along the way, by simply obeying his call.

It's amazing, and I just get to know him so much better, each time I obey, he trusts me more, each time I obey, he has another gift or revelation for me - I am so often just blown away, at the depth of his love, and the vastness of his wisdom - and how gladly he teaches me, and lets me see his beautiful design of this world.

I am forever grateful for his love and wisdom he conveys to me along the way and how my life has been exponentially changed by my own obedience and his generous spirit - and also even though you might think, by human knowledge and wisdom, you're way off track, when you see the whole picture you might actually be much closer to reaching yet a deeper level of understanding of his truth, than you would give yourself. 

Here I go again: Trust in God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but acknowledge him in all your ways and he will make your path straight - it's been my life line over the last 2 years - and I would for nothing in this world revert to my old way of being, and take back the reins on my life, that I so gladly handed over to him, for what I have today is so much better and I found a peace that truly surpasses all understanding.

May you find that in his loving arms as well - In the powerful name of Christ I pray - 

Amen - be blessed, my friends

Reminiscing...... - committed to learning to speak my man's love language.... - updated!!!

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

I am going down memory lane today....I don't really know why, but I stumbled across my wedding pictures of almost 12 years ago - the marriage didn't last, which makes me sad......but then again, looking back on all the lessons, that I had the privilege of learning through going through the ups and downs of the last 12 years, I realize that I have come a long way - I would have loved to have my dream of endless/timeless love come true.....and still be happily married - but you can't have everything.......

Through all of it, I learnt to look for the positive in all life's circumstances - I learnt to be grateful for what I have - and taking stock today, I have to say, that I am blessed with two amazing children, who are my pride and joy.....when I look back on all I could learn through the broken marriage, the difficulties along the way, raising my children on my own for the last 4+ years, my son with his issues for so many years - once I started to look my fears straight in the eye, and take ownership and charge of my life, didn't try to blame others anymore, but took them in stride, and embraced them, I learnt to believe, that in all the hardship, God was truly keeping a gift in it for me - all I had to do, was trust him and keep looking for it in every single one of my blessings in disguise. Along the way I found a love so deep and so profound.....one that is nurturing my every need - the eternal love of my eternal bridegroom, #theloverofmysoul, who would never let me go.

Today I know, that I will be able to choose love over ego and selfish needs.....I will not need to be praised by man (a man or mankind), nor will I need another person to complete me - all I need is for the man, that God has for me for life, to accept me completely - as I will completely accept him. 

Before, even though I kind of knew the love language of my ex husband, I couldn't speak to him in his love language - I guess pride and fear were in the way, because he didn't speak to me in mine.....so we didn't fill each others reservoirs of love, out of which we could have passed the love on to each other and to those in our sphere of influence.

Today I am totally committed and willing to learn the love language of my man, as I understand  it as an innate need, that he cannot live without and still be happy - I get that now.....it's just the way that I need it, too - and if I don't get it, my reservoir gets emptied and then we're merely existing - making each other miserable.

Thanks to the enormous love, that Christ (aka the lover of my soul) has for me, I know that I could be happy even if he (my man) didn't speak to me in my love language, because Christ does - and he replenishes my reservoir of love all the time with his tender touch......

It's been a learning curve, but I know, that, should God have another marriage in store for me down the road, I would be successful this time.....it would last for my life time here on earth or beyond, as I have learnt to give all my cares to him, who cares for me..... - and if that coincided, my man having surrendered all of him, to all of Christ, thus being both my man and the lover of my soul, then it's heaven on earth indeed. 

Forever grateful - thank you, my friends, for being such faithful friends - I love you <3

He is always right there with you.....

Embrace your destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my friends, some of you know, that I had surgery on my eye just two days ago - I had to remove a lesion on my right eye - it was a basal cell carcinoma......thankfully it's out now - and I wasn't  worried or scared, just a tad apprehensive about the procedure....but once I was in there, all was good. This was the very first time, I was conscious through surgery, mind you, it's only been the 2nd surgery, and the first one was 38 years ago, when I got my appendix out. Honestly I would much rather do it like it was this time again, as when they knock you out, the aftermath is so much worse - this time I could talk with the doctor and I didn't hurt, so all is good.

Actually through the entire procedure, I felt the presence of God there with me....I knew that he was in control and that he was the one holding my hand and that he also made sure, that the surgery went well and that all would be well afterwards. This was the very first time, too, that I completely rested in his care, knowing that nothing could harm me, and that he would make sure that all was going to be fine.

Now I am looking forward to an amazing summer, trusting that again, my sweet daddy in heaven will keep me safe and out of harm's way - when he is on your side, nothing is ever going to throw you off balance again. I shall be praising his name forever - and I know, that the intervention on my eye will again work for the best of me. As a friend of mine put it, I am sure that you will see life even better than before, now - and I believe that, too.....as this tumor has impacted my vision, just by being there, I shall now be seeing clearer and maybe even brighter colours - I will keep you posted.

I believe in all things that happen to you, good or bad, God has a plan or allows it, to further his plan for your life - and everything will bring you closer to your destiny. Please, my friends, never get discouraged, even if a diagnosis is bad and devastating, God can turn this around for your good - whatever the ailment is, he is in control and at the end of the day, when all is said and done, you will come out stronger on the other side. Don't ever believe the snare of the world/the enemy, as God truly is bigger than any of your problems, and in Christ we have victory - A L W A Y S!!!

I am absolutely positive about that, you know, how often in the past I could have given up hope concerning my health - as my childhood was plastered with sick moments, where I at times would even consider it gain, if God just took me home - but he had other plans, and today I am more healthy than ever before - and now this pathological growth has been removed and I am sure, that will have an impact as to how I see the life around me (circumstances, people and all) - stay tuned for the next post.

I love y'all tremendously - praying for you, that you would also consider any challenge in your life a blessing in disguise, a way for God to show you his supremacy and make you see, that he is in control and that he is working for your best yet to come at any given moment.

Hallelujah - #godissooogood :)

G R A T E F U L

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

That's all that I am.....God is awesome - he has given me this tremendous relief just this morning, I am a changed person, once again..... - Thank you, thank you, thank you, daddy, I am amazed at the level of peace that's flowing through me, as I write these words.... - think about the change for a moment, yesterday I wanted to scream and hide in my hole for a while, if not forever.....

My circumstances are still the same - the iPhone is still screwed up, the weekend is still going to be hard, and the next few weeks will still be busy....but it doesn't matter - I am at peace!!! God has made me see, that he is in Control and that he will provide for every single need of mine - and he also has given me assurance, that he is working in the background to give me my heart's desire!!! I am blown away at such deep love - my shoulders are still hurting from all the stress of the last weeks, but I am positive that this will go away swiftly.

Seeing, how he has strategically placed people around me, to make the load of living bearable - and how he is teaching me, to run to him, when I have to, when I feel weak and when all I want to do is curl up, and be pampered......so far that hasn't been provided a lot, but something tells me, that this is about to change.......I know that I am well on the way to receive my destiny......

You know, looking around me, I often wondered, why is it, that others seem to reach their goals much faster than me..... - well, just this morning, God revealed to me, that had he given me the things I wanted so badly any earlier, I would not have had the full benefit of all that he taught me.....I needed to learn to preservere, despite, whenever I would almost be able to touch my dream to come true, that things would not come through.....but this was, to make sure, that I would not make the dream, the person, or the circumstances my God, but he would always and forever be my source of strength.......

I get it now, daddy, and I love you even more for it - thank you for being so patient with me, and for trusting me so fully, that I would never ever give up.....that I would continue to press forward. Thank you!!! I am giving him all the glory - he created me that way.....he had and still has a purpose for me, and he knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that I would not cave in......he has always seen my full potential and not my flaws and failures - I can assure you, there is many.....

He believed in me, and I could rise to the challenge, because he lives in me - without him, in my own little strength, I couldn't have done it.....thank you, Jesus (aka #loverofmysoul) - you are the absolute greatest beloved, lover and friend!!! I can't wait to meet you face to face......here or there - your timing is right for me.......always and forever, you are in each and everyone around me, and you have shown me how much you love me......I will forever trust you.

Amen - faithfully yours in Christ forever

Acknowledge the negative within you and transform it into something positive

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Again, he has blown me away......you all know, how hard these last weeks were for me, my brain was on a constant overload - scatterbrained is not even describing how I felt.... - I forgot one thing with the other, and my brain was running a thousand miles an hour - well, I think I can say, I know I am on the mend......and that is only, because God has shown me, that he is always with me......

I don't have to know where I am headed in the natural realm, all I need to know, is, that I am headed, where he wants me to go.... - and that whatever I will decide, he will be with me - he will use each and every situation to bring me closer to my destiny.....he has been showing me this for the last year and something now, but I would still fall back and view things from my worldly perspective. This morning, I got it - I don't need to fret, I don't need to have it all together, I don't have to be super woman, no, quite the contrary is true, the more I run to him, when I am overwhelmed, when I have no clue, what to do and where to go, he will take me by the hand, and show me the way - each time I allow him to see my weakness, I give him the chance to come through for me......

And since I get it more fully everyday - this morning, I hope I got it once and for all, that I won't ever put those worldly glasses on anymore - I never liked them to begin with. Just this morning, when I read an e-mail from my ex, where he accused me of always seeing things from the negative angle - whereas I see him being the one, who is always critical and looks through the negative lens - I realized, that truly others are mainly mirroring our own tendencies back to us..... - all we have to do, is to embrace it, and let go of that particular aspect of our being - it's not bad, it's just there and wants to be seen. Once we acknowledge the presence and don't try to push it into our shadow, which ultimately frustrates us, and shows up at moments, when we least need it or expect it - it can finally leave - or even stay, as being discerning (critical) is not a bad thing, neither is being aggressive, angry or a bunch of other emotions that we have labeled bad - it's just how we use it i n our lives that makes it bad. Once we turn it over to God, he can transform it into something beautiful.

I choose Joy, I choose Hope, I choose to see the good in everything, even in the blessings in disguise - I look at others and see myself - and since I know, that in my heart, I have never done anything, but tried to do things right, I have to see that in them as well, and forgive and forget immediately - we are all in the same boat. None is better none is worse - we are all always teacher and student in any life situation.

Let's embrace that: when we think someone is criticizing us unjustly, we have the same tendency within ourselves, when someone loves us, and sees only the good, then we have that in us as well - God wants to purify us, that we will be like him, and he knows, that we need to be rubbed the wrong way for our negative character traits to be removed and purified.....and the ones that are in our lives, that really bring out the worst in us, are actually there, because God wants us to learn the lesson: it's always about us - we need to be transformed from glory to glory - each and everyone here on earth is only responsible for his or her own actions - but we all try to be judges and critics of  our fellow man - that's where we derive our importance from.

I have some very profound news for you: Because you are here, you are important - you have a destiny, because you breathe. God wants you here today, because he has a plan for you.....not for you changing the person next to you, but for you to reach your full potential. He will work in the heart of all his children, to bring them to their destiny. He doesn't need your help :)

And he will provide the same lesson over and over again, until we finally understand, that he is our sole provider and that he has our best interest at heart, even if that means, he has to put difficult, negative, even mean people in our lives...... - well we are all that - but we are also all love, compassion, hope, peace, mercy and forgiveness - let your light shine - that's what you came here for......

I am giving up fixing people and I will forever see only his face in them, and let him do the work in me - what about you, my friends.....???

Be blessed - I love you from the bottom of my heart......
#godissooogood :)

What a considerate and gentle teacher he is :)

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

My dear friends, I have been exhausted beyond measure over the last little - or long while.....the many hats, I am wearing and the many revelations I have been given the privilege to receive.....

Decisions regarding my immediate circumstances - praying and believing, that God is in control and that his promises regarding some of my immediate issues will turn them around for good for those who love him - and loving him I do..... - with all my heart. Actually more and more so every day!!! I have been experiencing restless nights (not like in the past, that I would be worrying about the things running through my head.... - more that I would wake up, and that God would fill my thoughts with wonder, as he explains his beautiful design in more depth to me.....) 

I love spending these moments in deep deep conversation with my daddy in heaven, but somehow all the learning is also taking it's toll on my poor little body.....so two nights ago, as I was a lying awake, listening to what he had to share with me, I asked him, to bless me with a few more hours of sleep, as I was so extremely tired - I could almost feel him feeling sorry, that he had woken me up - you have to understand, since he never sleeps, he never gets tired....., so the minute I had verbalized my prayer request I could feel myself drifting off to sleep - thank you daddy for being so considerate!!!

Had this been another human being, I would have wondered if I had offended him, with God I am never wondering that, for I know, nothing I do or don't do can change his love for me - I have also had the privilege to learn that over the last months in the here and now..... - what a blessing!!!

Knowing that he will turn everything in my life around for good for me, and that he will never ever leave me alone, stranded in this world, brings such tremendous relief. #godissooogood :) I know that, no matter what happens to me tomorrow.....he will be by my side - rejoicing with me or making sure that my pain will subside and heal, depending on the lesson learnt......

Please, my friends, let's collectively choose to trust him, choose Joy instead of negativity - Life instead of death......#godisable to come through for us all the time - and he longs to do it for us.....let him in and share your heart with him!!! 

Prayerfully yours - always

Plan B can become Plan A - and Christ is with you all the way.....Yay!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Here is part 2 of: don't settle for Plan B - sometimes Plan B seems to be the way to go - we have to remember: It's not about this house our the other, big or small, it's not about this country or the other, this trip or that, even this job or the other or other things that you have to decide which direction to go - you may have some favourites..... - and that is okay, too. But the key is, remember, that God is always with you.....Plan A or Plan B, he will never leave you nor forsake you. All he asks you to do, is to give your life, which is the real thing, not a dress rehearsal, your all at any given moment, love with all your heart, plant both feet firmly in the hear and now, then he can make your life what he planned it to be, you will be living your miracle everyday of your life - for we all know, dreams can change - all that is really important: never ever give up dreaming, and don't let other people talk you out of your dream. 

God placed a bunch of dreams within you, and he will help you to reach them - you need to trust him in all circumstances, even if it seems nowhere near possible....God will find a way, where there seems to be no way.

Keep dreaming, keep living at all cost, and trust him with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.....in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight!!! 

When you are attentive to the holy spirit, you will know, that you are in his will - your peace will give it away - the peace that passes all understanding - this peace will guard your mind and your heart, and it will make you finish strong. You can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you.

Today he gave me this promise regarding a few things, that have kept me up at night: Don't worry, girl, I have you covered - I will be with you every step of the way and I will provide the answers you are looking for one step at a time - don't run ahead of yourself.....we will get there....and if need be, I will carry you across the finish line. Give me all your confusion about where to turn, what to do - if you don't have the answer, you don't need it yet - I am with you every step of the way, and I will tell you in due time and then you will understand.....Trust me - I won't ever leave you stranded. 

You can imagine, how teary eyed I was, when he talked to me that way - not that I didn't know that before, but it's nice to hear it - thank you, Jesus, my sweet lover of my soul, I cherish this most amazing and honest relationship that you and I have - I feel safe in your arms. I know, that my dream and my destiny are safe in your most capable hands.

Trusting #theloverofmysoul all the way to the finish line - :)
Amen

Don't settle for Plan B, if Plan A is only a miracle away - #godisable :)

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Amazing indeed, this morning even before I had to get up for church, God was talking to me about this.....he showed me, that I should not settle for Plan B, if Plan A was only a miracle away - for #godisable - and if he promises it, he does it..... - and then, in church, the pastor talked about it again.....tears welled up in my eyes, cause it showed me, that God really means business - he confirms the messages he sends to us - especially when he gives the same message to more than one person at the same time - Amazing!!!

There were a couple of things that he had revealed to me, that pointed me clearly toward that end - and I won't go into too much detail, as it's not relevant to the story - and then he urged me to face my fear regarding something really silly, but I was afraid nonetheless - today I finally did it: got this lawn mower to go, and started mowing the front of the house, and, guess what, I actually enjoyed it....so I was singing at the top of my longs (no one heard me anyway ;)) - and I got the hang of it really quickly.....which again proves: I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.....I did feel his presence with me on this thing and I got the memo: God can do all things through those, he has called according to his purpose - and all things will work together for the the good of them.

I am again blown away, how thoroughly he blows me away.....it's amazing - he never ever ceases to surprise me......so: as for me and my house, we will follow the Lord - always and forever!!!

Oh, how I love these 'God Moments' in my life - the truth truly sets me free every step of the way - and his truth is simply amazing - praying that he would reveal himself to you in the same way..... - and please, friends, don't settle for Plan B, if Plan A is only a miracle away - press forward for your miracle.......he is able and he wants to bless you beyond anything you could ever imagine - #godissooogood :)

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray - I love you.....but there is one, who loves you even more, and that is the triune God himself.

The most astounding pentecostal weekend.....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Speechless, to say the least......this has been a chaotic weekend on many many levels, but incredibly awesome on other levels......

When I realized, what weekend this last weekend was from a spiritual and christian point of view, I knew that God was up to something amazing - and he has blessed me with revelations galore, deeper understanding of life and life's truth......I know today that he loves me in a very personal way - he is my lover, my beloved and very best friend.....nothing was lost, all my experiences this lifetime have amounted to something good - he has shown me heaven more than once - and  now he has given  me the key to heaven in the hear and now - now I know that I can go there anytime I want and need, and I can stay there for as long as I need and want, in order to live the life he wants me to live. I am still here on earth, more firmly rooted with both feet on the ground, than ever before, but he has given me wings to fly, renewed my mind, changed my point of view.....transformed my thinking patterns......#fromglory2glory!!!

Life will always be life here on earth, there will always be challenges, but I, more than ever before, know that I can find refuge in his arms, when I need to and I am more than welcome to be with him.....but more importantly: I finally realized the most amazing truth, and that is, that he is always with me - I can feel his presence with me ALL the time - when I am stressed, he is near, to lift me up again, when I am happy he is there, to rejoice with me. And when I call upon him for help in times of trouble, he is there and he works behind the scenes, to make things right for me.

Thankfully yesterday, he has blessed me with his sustaining presence at a time, where I needed to stay centred and calm - and I could do it - every day he teaches me, that it is I that need to change, when I am finding myself in adversity - the life around me is just a reflection of who I am at this particular time......and over time, he has replaced the critical lenses with grace filled ones......and he is still at work.

I know, when I feel judged, it's because I am still not all void of any judgment yet.....when I feel the need to justify myself before others, I am still trying to please people rather than pleasing him, who created me..... - I am learning and I am still a work in progress - the good news is: I am not perfect, but I am better than I was last year - and I am FORGIVEN.....and the things where I fall short of his glory, are the things he is refining inside of me, to mould me into his likeness, one step at a time.

When I was playing harp a couple of days ago......I was being criticized for an area in my life, where I am less than perfect.....it was then, that his spirit whispered in my ear, don't get stressed out, my child, you are forgiven - I love you just the way you are.....and I am not going to let go of you because of your failures.....I believe in you....I know you'll finish the race strong, for you are obedient to my calling and no one will be able to disgrace you.

Isn't this just amazing??? A few other things he has taught me over the last couple of months - I will talk about that at a later blog, as I have no idea, how to explain these things just yet, so I need his guidance to show me, when and how to address it, but stay tuned, it's truly liberating.

One little tidbit of information here: In the 10 commandments, God told Moses, that we are not to use his name in vain - it has been understood as a reprimand and a restrictive rule - God revealed to me not too long ago, that it was meant as a promise, that we will never ever use his name in vain.....when ever we call on him, he is there. The institution church has brought us a set of tremendous rules, where God intended promises and a message of love. 

My dear friends, I know I am stretching a few parameters here.....but as you all know, I have surrendered my life fully to Christ (I can not wait to meet him face to face, when he comes to claim me as his own) - and all I do, is to bring Glory to his name alone. It's not about me, it's about him - and since this is my heart's desire, I am sharing in his glory - and I am loving it.

Obedience breeds blessings - and I am not obedient for sake of the blessings - I am obedient to his calling because he has transformed me from glory to glory all my life - and most profoundly over the last 2 years - but to be very very honest, I absolutely appreciate receiving his blessings.

Thank you, Daddy, lover of my soul, for your guidance.....thank you for loving me through my iniquities, for forgiving me at all times - he knows, that when I fail, it's not because I don't want to do it right, it's because I am human..... - I am forgiven in Christ, this is how I am sanctified and in right standing with God - I can never ever merit his grace.....he bestows it on me in the moment I need it the most (when I fail him or those around me) and his grace is always sufficient for me.

Get up and be free, my friends, let's live in the presence of Christ resurrected and le's not stay in this old pattern, of Jesus crucified. God wants to bless you with a life more abundantly - receive it!!!

Amen

I need your Strength my God....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Gosh, I don't know, but I am in some sort of a tailspin at the moment.....I am finding it hard, to keep my balance in the face of all the things pressing in from all sides - I know deep in my heart, that God will make a way, where there seems to be no way, but a couple of things seem so out of whack, and so hard to handle, that I find myself trying to reason about the probability of these things working out for good.....so this morning my prayer is: Lord, please help me in my unbelief - I have a hard time trusting, that all this will really work out - he has promised me, that I don't have to worry.....but then again, listening to all the people around me, who are still very stuck in the physical limited way of living, I find it extremely hard, to live by his word alone......

Lord, please help me, I need an extra measure of faith right now - please provide for my need. I know, he has rescued me so many times and has provided for my needs a million times, but right now, the enemy is closing in, and I know that the uncertainty, that I feel, is probably just a fraction of the fight that Jesus is fighting for me in the heavenlies - I know that he will give me the mana for one day at a time, that's all I need......so I choose to walk in faith and to press forward to run the race, that has been set before me.....to receive the crown of Glory, when all is said and done.....

Please pray for me, my friends, I truly can use some extra measure of faith right now!!! Don't get me wrong, I am not really doubting his promises - I just find it extremely hard, to stay the course with a lot of rationalism and critical thinking around me......

Praying that my Daddy in Heaven would intervene on my behalf and lift me out of this moment of questioning his promises......... for I know, if there is anyone, who is truly faithful and trustworthy, it's him - the lover of my soul and my sweet daddy in Heaven - who are living inside my heart and who gave me the holy spirit to guide me through life......

I love and trust them with all my heart, and again I shall not lean on my own understanding......today and forever more.

In the powerful name of Jesus
Amen

I am amazed at all he teaches me these days....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear dear friends - God is so good, ALL the TIME - I am simply blown away by all that he teaches me these days.....one very profound thing, that I just realized the other day, is that truly God sees the heart, the motivations, whereas people only see the actions, yet they will give the action a spin of where they are in their lives, what they own experiences have been, and not just objectively look at your actions. God will grow you into mature children of God, in his time - meaning, that we will be brother's and sisters to Christ, once we have learnt what we were meant to learn here on earth - and this is simply, to trust in the Lord with all our hearts and lean not on our own understanding. 

You might remember, that this January I got a tattoo saying exactly that - I used the Bible verse of Proverbs, that says the same thing: Proverbs 3:5-6 - once we have learnt that, he will take us to adventures, you could never ever have dreamt up yourself - he will challenge you, because a lot of what he is going to ask you to do, is very controversial to today's society.....but if you trust him with all your heart, obey his command at all times, he will truly lift you up on wings like eagles.

I cannot talk about some of the things he has asked me to do......but let me assure you, more often than not, I am tempted to say: Oh no, God, I can't do that.....what will my neighbour or the people around me think - but then, when I choose to obey, he lifts me up on wings like eagles - today I fear neither reproach nor criticism of my fellowman anymore, because I know, he has been an outcast in his time - the Pharisees didn't like his teaching, since it was extremely radical and didn't line up with what they were teaching. Well, I can assure you, that was true then, as much as it is true today - but
a) he will protect your integrity, he will sanctify you every step of the way, and
b) he will use you mightily (John 14:12) - for we are called to do the same things that Jesus did, and even greater things.

He literally sends me places, I had not planned to go, just because there is someone, that he might want to touch, reach through me. And remember, he sat with the tax payers, the sinners of all categories - as he came to save the lost - even Paul says in his letter to the Corinthians, that when he was with the gentiles, he found common ground, to interact with them, so that they could relate. I find this exceedingly true to where he leads me.....especially regarding my tattoos - it's so easy to say something encouraging to someone having a tattoo, when you have one yourself, and they will have a much easier time, to believe, you really mean it.

Often God reveals insight regarding the people I encounter, sometimes he doesn't but I know, whatever it is, he will put the words into my mouth, that these people need to hear. He never leaves me stranded and I am most grateful, for being used this way - that all that I do, would bring Glory to his name, as this is what I want to do every day of my life - be his instrument of Love, Grace and Mercy!!! And he surely has granted me this desire of my heart.

I am praying, my friends, that you would let him use you like that - the blessings, that come with being obedient at the onset, are tremendous, mind you I am not doing it for the blessings, I am doing it, because I cannot be out of his will anymore, but I don't mind to receive them - and it saves us a tremendous amount of tears, suffering and pain, if we obey immediately. He is God Almighty and he will never ever let go of any of his children.....he can't stop loving us, just like #JoshGroban sings in his song of his latest CD 'All that Echoes': Happy in My Heartache - He can't stop loving you, that's his nature, that's who he was, who he is, and who he will be for eternity.

May your day be blessed, and may you fully understand, who you are in him: A Victor for Christ, A Warrior for the Kingdom, A Knight in Shining Armour for the Oppressed, A Deliverer of Peace, Love, Joy and Grace - He has a huge plan for you - embrace it today, and allow God to walk this path with you - you will be blown away, by the great things, he can do through you!!!

In the Powerful Name of Jesus Christ, I pray - 
Amen

He is with me ALL the time, EVERYWHERE I go!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Today was a very stressful day for me - actually the last few weeks were, as I have mentioned before.....you might recall my post at or around February 11th, where I shared that something happened, that truly threw me off balance......well, it's with regard to this scenario, that my life is still not quite back to normal - as I said before, I won't be able to go into details.....just this much: I have received I letter on that day, that shook me to the core of who I am.....and I needed several weeks, to address this issue, to get it rectified somehow......and that's where I still am - yet today, God showed me clearly, that he is with me ALL the time and EVERYWHERE I go - as I was going into the city, to keep moving in the right direction, I was talking to him as I was driving, and as I was walking to a meeting I had.

As I lifted a prayer for his guidance, that he would be my rock and my fortress as I went into the meeting, and that he please be with me every step of the way - I heard a very clear voice, saying: I am with you, wherever you go girl, and don't worry I have this under control - you are safe with me.... - and as I was walking, I felt such peace washing over me, and tears of gratitude welling up in my eyes, that I knew deep down in my heart, that this was truly the Lord speaking to me. Wow, do I ever love the relationship we share - he is my provider, he keeps me safe, and he knows my heart inside out, he truly is the lover of my soul - and he is always near - we rejoice together, and we work through the issues of life together.

I pray, my friends, that you would all meet him on such an intimate level - there is nothing about me, that he doesn't know of - all my faults and failures are out there in the open - I can assure you, that I am no saint, and that I still struggle with impatience and a lot of other things- yet I have come a long way over the last few months.....and he is permanently teaching me more about who he truly is.....and all I can say: I have never felt as loved and cherished in my entire life - I know, he is for real, and that he is so very deeply invested in every single detail of my life.... and he will never quit until we finally meet face to face - I love him with all my heart and I pray that you would fall in love with him, too, and that you would feel his loving touch in your lives. He so longs to be with you.....he wants to be your lover and friend in all circumstances.

When we submit to his leadership and when we listen and obey to the promptings of the Holy Spirit, we will truly never be the same - we are then mature children of God, who he can use, to work his miracles through us, in a world that is in such deep need of a saviour.....someone, who is carrying the light into the world - and God longs to use you for his purpose, to heal those in your sphere of influence.....are you ready to let him use you???

I am so in love with him, I know, that I never have to be afraid again, I know, he protects me from the arrows the enemy might aim at me.....he averts their path, and I can stand tall in his promises - my friends, we're all in this together - I am hoping, that my account of his steadfast love for me, and the way he instantly responds to my prayers and needs, will prompt you, to let go and let God take over - place your burdens at the cross...... - I promise you, your life will never be the same, it will be exponentially changed for the so much better - that you will wonder why it was so hard to surrender all of you to all of him in the first place, as you will have received a life so full and abundant that you never believed could ever be possible.....your dreams all of the sudden start to happen around you - and you will literally stand in AWE at what God is doing in your life - and you will be free to fly.....

Please, my friends, join me.....I am having a fantastic time, doing what the Holy Spirit tells me to do - and even if I am still here, and sometimes the going gets tough, he has given me a dignity and a sense of purpose, that I never imagined could be possible here on earth.

I lift this prayer to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords, that he would reveal himself more and more in your life, that you would truly meet the Christ resurrected and know for a fact, that he is the great I am - the one who was, and is and is to come.

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ - Amen