Learning daily....My Daddy in Heaven is simply the best!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my friends, I hope you are all well. The weather has been extremely crazy the last little while......icy cold with windchill reaching up to -28'C - yesterday warm winds +12'C - right now it's snowing and windy......oh well, I guess it's winter and we'll make the best of it.

Yesterday at my harp lesson, I learnt an amazing truth about myself - you all know, that I absolutely love my harp, and I love to play it, I love to listen to harp music - it's as if I waited all my life to play this instrument......well: the posture and how you pluck the strings is not like anything you do in real life......and I tend to get really tense, the higher up my hand comes, and I pull my elbows towards me, which is all wrong, cause then your posture gets bad and the sound doesn't come out right.....my teacher said, I had to pretend as if I was opening my arms wide, to welcome someone into my arms, into an embrace, that I really love, and not as if I'd rather shrink away from the embrace.

This told me something about myself.....I often shrink away, even from the people I love, because I have been burnt in the past, and I don't want to risk hurt or rejection again - on a subconscious level, for on the conscious level, I think I am willing to risk it all..... - so when I got home, I tried to do what my teacher had said.....and I found myself in tears - longing for this embrace of the person I loved the most, opening my arms and pulling the harp towards me, as if it was the love of my life - and I realized, that I don't really dare to do that in reality (with people). I always knew, that playing the harp was therapeutic, but I never thought it could help me realize, that in my life right now, I am still holding back - still being chained up somehow, not able to fully receive.

Last Sunday we sang a song: I receive your love - just that.....and I know, I have to learn to receive more fully. I am still stuck and my wings can't quite stretch all the way..... - how sad is that, for I really want to fly. And I fly in many different areas of my life, but for love, I still don't open my arms wide enough, to receive it.

I took this to my Daddy in prayer last night, and he revealed to me, that I had to dare to believe and dare to receive.....so I will take his advice and exercise with my harp, even if the tears keep flowing, I know it's worth it. I also know, that that is why my left shoulder is still hurting - my wing is still hurting..... - I am just amazed, at how quickly I hear from my Father in Heaven.

He is simply the best - I pray that you would feel encouraged to go to him with your tears, fears and pains, and ask him, to reveal to you, what lies at the root of your suffering. I am sure he will gladly give you the answers you are looking for. For his deepest desire is to be in a relationship with you.

I trust in him with all my heart and I know, he always knows best - In the powerful name of Jesus Christ - Amen

No Regrets.....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello friends, here is what I learnt during the last weekend at my Biosynthesis Course - amongst other things:

There is many different ways of saying good-bye.....we touched on that subject, because it's relevant to working with our clients, and because we were saying 'Good-Bye' as this was the last unit in our 3 year program - and even though we will be back for 3 more visits, it will be a different kind of setting - it's called supervision and is supposed to help us to get established in our field of somatic therapy....so the practice sessions were about saying 'Good-Bye' to old patterns and welcoming new patterns.

My session was with one of my colleagues.....when she asked me, what I wanted to leave in the old...., not to take with me into the New, I realized, that I didn't need to leave anything behind, as I had found peace about it all....the sum total of who I am today is the life I lived up until now, all the challenges and experiences, all the joys and all the sadness - since it has been released into the hands of Jesus, for him to heal my heart and to give me the confidence that I have always been loved, that through my simply being alive, I have immense incredible value to him.....that the experiences were all training me to be who he wanted me to be. That in all of our challenges, we can be sure, that when God allows it, he has a present in it for us. Are you ready to open it??? Don't be scared, Jesus holds your heart safe in his hands, and thus helps you to reach your destiny. He believes in you and so can you. So I actually just wanted to take the pillow that represented my past into my arms and cuddle it close to my heart, basically thanking my past for getting me to where I am today.

Through my course I have learnt to much and through it all, my relationship with my creator has been strengthened beyond anything that I could have ever dreamt up myself. Him and I we're the best of friends.....and in all things, I give Glory to him, cause he has brought me to where I am, through all the sadness, the grief, the hurts.....by bringing the right people, books, therapies and lastly bringing me to study the method of Biosynthesis, and he is leading me to my destiny - facilitating his healing touch in the lives of others.

Be blessed today and always - Amen

The Wound of the Unloved

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear friends, I am just going to quickly share with me, what God has been revealing to me over the last few days...... - it's absolutely HUGE!!!

First he told me exactly, how he wants the practice to be set up, that him and I together can most effectively reach out to our clients and he will guide my every step. This again gives me huge peace of mind, because even there, he is in control. He knows the heart of the people he will send.....therefore, me yielding to his spirit will get us the farthest.

Yesterday I got news from my mother, that when they did a CT Scan, they found spots on her lungs.....well, I could freak out now, and be all fearful, that this may be the cancer shown up again - yet I chose not to freak out, and brought this to my Daddy in Heaven, and he assured me, that all is well.....then he guided me to read a blogpost of my previous blog 'Yielding to the Spirit' (In the Name of the Father) - Team Jesus Christ vs. Satan.....and here is what he confirmed with me today:

The lungs hold sadness, grief and fear - and these spots are actually a good thing, cause it's showing, that my mother is working the grief, sadness and fear out of her body - just like God did with me back when I posted about how the cough was making it's way out of my system (thus satan being cast out) - meaning the fear and sadness, that provided a foothold for his lies in my life. 

He also revealed the cause of this sadness, grief and fear to me - and I will explain that in a later post - just so much today: We all carry the Wound of the Unloved, because someone didn't love us the way we thought we deserved it - but underneath all that is the fact, that it might just be our perception of this person's behaviour - and the truth of the matter is, that people will always disappoint us, but God never will - He loves us eternally - he created us, and he has a plan for us. We have to choose to fight for the ones we truly love, for that's what Christ would do/has done on the cross.

Show the Love of Christ to the people around you, and tell them that you care - and make them feel valued - they do have  immense incredible value to God - he died for their sins as well as for ours - when we have fully understood that, we cannot not love them, the way Christ loved us.

Consider this: When someone in your life really hurts you, their soul is crying out to you: Love me, please Love me despite me treating you so badly, despite me hurting you so much. I need the reassurance, that you still love me, that you still care. Can we do this - I think the answer to this question for a true believer must always be: YES I CAN - YES WE CAN.

Let's reach out to each and everyone and let's not be the judge of actions, those, whose souls hurt the most, are the ones that are the fiercest in striking out, but they are the one's that need your love and your grace the most. We have to give this at all times to everyone - cause Christ gave it to us.

In the powerful Name of Jesus, I pray that this will be our destiny from this day forward.
Be blessed my friends,
Amen

Graduated - stunned and grateful!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet friends, I have graduated from the Biosynthesis Institute California - Somatic Therapy, Somatic Coaching......wow - three years of training and diligently traveling to California for my courses since January 2010. When I take stock of these 3 years, I have to say, that they clearly mark a turn around in my life. The work of Biosynthesis has surely helped me to embrace my God given gifts and talents, step out in faith and pursue the life God has for me.

These last 3 years have gotten me closer to my heavenly Father, and my relationship with my best friend, my big brother and co-heir Jesus has grown into one of complete trust, respect and compassion. I am forever changed. Through Biosynthesis, which by the way, in itself and through it's methods helped to clear the debris, that had before caused me, to hold on to my control patterns, thus not being able to hand the reins over to the one, who loves me with such deep compassion, that he would even die for me on the cross. Finally I could see clearly, that all I had to do, was to surrender all my fears and worries at the cross, and receive true peace.

Now I am about to embark on this most magnificent journey, starting my Somatic Therapy Practice. God has put such a deep compassion for his children in my heart, that already in my teenage years, I read books about this subject - today I know, that this was God's plan all along, that I would choose the therapeutic field  - yet at first I never really considered it, as this wasn't even considered a profession, when I first embarked into the work life. After returning to Europe in 1996, when I met with Dr. Margit Dahlke in Germany, she saw this potential in me at that time, I had no idea,, how to go about it, cause all the trainings, I looked into, didn't really entice me......I guess the time was just not right yet. 

When my longtime school friend from Germany told me about the course she was taking in Biosynthesis and explained what that was, I felt that this could be the right thing for me to pursue. After I had researched it  a bit further and after I had the very first session with my future trainer Gabriele Hoppe in Düsseldorf, Germany in August 2009, I was ready to embark on this Journey. It surely has proven to be the biggest gift, God could ever give to me - the integrative work of Biosynthesis helped me, to face my issues and challenges head on, this along with my growing faith in Jesus, as my Lord and Saviour, best friend and lover of my soul (our relationship had deepened considerably) - and through clearing away the debris that clogged my view and my perspective of life, I learned to see life through Jesus' eyes, through the redeeming eyes of Grace. 

God is showing me day by day and step by step, that really all I have to do is trust and obey him and all will be well. He looks after me and takes care of my needs. With my writing for him and with now stepping out in faith, to start my practice and offer the love of Christ, that I experienced so deeply in my own life, to others, I pray that I can be his instrument in healing the hearts of those who will seek my help. The Glory truly belongs to God, without whose touch in my life, I would still be in the dreadful place of trying to make it on my own.

The last unit (the last weekend) was very intense, but very much worth it. I learnt so much in the whole 3 years, and I am so excited, to pass that on to my clients - it feels as if I am pregnant again, and just about to give birth to this new endeavour - the nursery is ready to welcome the baby. Wow, who would ever have thought, that I'd get this far. I know, God knew, and I am glad, he never gave up on me, even when I was still rebelling against his plan. He saw my potential and through many different channels helped me hear the voice of the Holy Spirit - Karen Kingsbury, Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith and many others were instrumental in my walk to find my way back home. Now I hope I can be instrumental to others.

Entrusting my practice into the hands of him, who created me, I know, this too will take flight - I am deeply grateful for all the support I received throughout the training. My thanks go especially to those, who cared for my children, while I had to travel, to my trainer Gabriele Hoppe and her assistants, my fellow students, all those, who trusted me and believed, that I could do it, and all those, who supported my dream. Thank you, thank you, thank you, I could not have done it without you.

With a grateful heart, I look forward to the next chapter in my life - 
Be blessed my friends - I love y'all
Amen

Unexpected Christmas Hero - Reflections

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my friends, today I want to talk about a book I read over the Christmas break: 'Unexpected Christmas Hero' by Kathi Macias - what an inspiration this was. It's a story about a woman, who looses everything, her husband to cancer, her home and riches to her husband having made mistakes in his life, the subsequent struggle, to live life out on the streets, to find shelter during the nights, to keep herself and her two children fed somehow. My heart was breaking for her.....but rejoicing for her at the end of the story. As it has been for some time now, when I read, my heart often breaks for the main characters.....often God has a special message in the books I read for me.....so, my Spirit is always awake, to hear, what the Holy Spirit wants me to hear.....sometimes he puts people on my mind, telling me, that they are going through something similar, urging me to pray for them.....sometimes he heals my heart, when parts of the story resonate with my own. This time, I couldn't tell at first, what it was, that he was trying to tell me with this story - but all of the sudden it was clear.....

.....we are all homeless, until we find our way back home, into the loving arms of our father in Heaven. We all try to find shelter and try to be able to provide food for our families......struggling often to make ends meet. Yet our father in Heaven wants to be our provider, but we have to completely trust him - often times, when our circumstances are such as in the story, that we are living out in the streets in reality, this is most evident, but we're all in the same boat - even if we live in the biggest mansion with the most prestigious job.

We are all homeless, cause this is not our home, true security doesn't come until we know, that all the money we can make in our jobs, is also a provision from God - Every good gift comes from above. He owns everything, so he ultimately provides for all our needs. Yet we relish the false sense of being capable of doing it on our own. We simply are not - we cannot even set one foot for another, wasn't it for God creating us in such a way, that our body can do that. Therefore: the Glory belongs to him always, not just when it's most evident as it is in this story.

A couple of things that surfaced over the last 10 days - I won't go deeper into the circumstances, as doing that would expose other people, and that I cannot do - have shown me this truth being relevant at all times - and I must say, that since last Tuesday morning, I have been able to taste my father's amazing providence for me on a much much more personal and tangible level.....he made me realize, that in his strength, truly I can do all things, that he indeed will provide for all my needs (maybe not all my wants) - along with the promise, that all is possible, for him, who believes.

He holds our tomorrow and he has a plan - and all we ultimately have to do, is, to reaffirm our trust in him and believe, that he will do, what he promises in his word.

I know, that I could not live any other way any more - I hope, my friends, that you will trust him with all your heart, that he will provide for your needs. Aren't you far more precious than the Lilies in the fields and the birds in the sky??? He created you and he wants to share his entire kingdom with you - don't let the enemy trick you in believing otherwise. You are an heir to the throne, and you should walk as such - it's not, that you get what you deserve......you get what you accept. I have reason to believe, that he wants to bless you beyond, what you are willing to receive.

Open your heart to the riches, he has for you - don't allow yourself to be limited by your fears, worries our doubts. He wants to set you free and give you a life, you never ever dreamt could be yours. 

He is in control, he is the one to anoint and appoint, he is the one, to cancel debt and forgive sin - let his Grace wash over you, wave after wave - his storehouses never run dry. Trust him.

In Jesus' Name - Amen

I got it..... - Home at last!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet friends, here I write to you, cause a huge light bulb went on today: The Holy Spirit prompted me to write my first blog in September 2011, giving me the Title: Up Close and Personal......then I felt led to end it, thinking, he (God) had something else in mind for the new blog, than what I was doing at the time (blogging about my daily walk with Christ, my personal story, how I learnt to trust my Heavenly Father, what God revealed to me) - so I obeyed, and started the new blog - The Holy Spirit had given me the new title 'Yielding to the Spirit' - and now, just a little while ago, again I sensed, that this blog was going to end......again thinking/believing, that God had something else in store with this new blog....... - I received the new title 'Happily Ever After'.....today God revealed to me, that it isn't that I have to do something different, in each blog I write, it is more, that the old blog is ending, because He  has taught me, and through my obedience to His teachings, I have outgrown the present 'Title', and that I had grown spiritually and was now promoted  to another level of my walk with Christ (of trust in Him and God - and of obedience to the Holy Spirit).

So, here comes the amazing truth: I will continue writing about anything the Holy Spirit will have me write about, may it be my own experiences or whatever other topic the Holy Spirit is guiding me to write.

The new title seemed a bit presumptuous for me at first, but due to latest circumstances, and my response to them, God has shown me, that the title again is true to the level of trust in which I walk with Christ today. Our relationship has indeed matured into that of 'Happily Ever After' - for I got it: He has taken residency in my heart, and he is in control of my life - for a short moment (a couple of hours during the night) I wrestled with the fear, worry and doubt that was trying to pierce my heart......but through prayer and releasing it all to him, who died for me, I received his eternal Peace - knowing deep in my heart, that he holds my tomorrow, that he will provide for my needs, and that all I have to do, is to obey the Holy Spirit, and do as he commands. All is well with my soul - I am in the same boat with the one, who quiets the storm and calms the sea. I am home at last. Thank you, sweet Jesus, for making your home in my heart and through this giving me the peace that surpasses all understanding.

Since Tuesday Morning, I live in yet another, deeper place of Grace, Love and Peace and always in His Joy - and I know, this is my forever home, with Jesus/God in the Center of my Heart,  - there is no better place to be.

In Awe - yet full of Joy and Peace - praying that you find this beautiful place in your heart as well, where we do not have to fret and worry anymore, but live in His Peace forevermore.

In Jesus' precious name,
Amen

What we can learn from a simple sleigh ride

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear friends.....a lot has happened - life just happens everyday afresh, there is never a dull moment.....but let me start with a reflections of the last day of 2012:

We, my children, my brother and his children, his girlfriend and a few other friends, went tobogganing in Switzerland - a pretty steep trail down from one train station to the next (6.5 km of sometimes pretty steep territory, sometimes less steep.....it was daytime and it was sometimes scary and other times fun. I was riding with my daughter, and I was making sure, she felt safe and enjoyed the ride.

In the beginning I was braking a lot - it was icy and pretty steep, plus we didn't quite know, how the trail was continuing and how the toboggan reacted to the steering......yet after a while, we got the hang of it, and even though I must admit, the speed still sometimes scared me a little, we were enjoying the ride, looking at the scenery and feeling very alive and grateful for this fun journey.......

At the foot of the hill, in the little village called Bergün we met up with the others, as we were the slowest of the gang - there was a stand where warm drinks could be ordered and I enjoyed a nice warm Glühwein and my daughter had a warm children's punch.

On the train ride back to where we stayed over the holidays, I contemplated the differences of that same sleigh ride 6 years and a few days ago  and today: First difference was, that we went down the trail after dark (it's a floodlit tobogganing trail) - my little boy was only 5 at the time......we saw absolutely NOTHING of where we were going.....so even if I kind of figured out the steering after sometime, I could never prepare for any bend just until it was right in front of us......the speed was incredible and I couldn't really enjoy the ride.....as I had to make sure, we wouldn't fall off into some ditch, and hurt ourselves. Making it down, my son and I were incredibly cold and my dad, who had come along, waited in a restaurant near the train station, while the others went up and down one more time (the others being my brother and his twins (7 at the time) and his girlfriend......

It's kind of representative of my life......then I was still living in the dark, afraid to navigate through the dark, afraid I would fall off the track - today I have found the light, and somehow all that happens has lost its treat to me......I learnt to navigate, learnt to view and scan my surroundings, and adapt speed and steering to my path according to the needs. 

The reason I tell you this, is to make you aware of the significance of things that we never even realize to give us some information about our situation or the situation of others......but when we open our eyes, and look more closely, we can more often then not learn something about our attitude of our lives. When we more often see the glass half full than we see it half empty, and when we more often hate our circumstances, we can be assured, that our perception is off, that we need to turn inward and change our attitude rather than feel like a victim to our circumstances and maybe even blame others for them.....God gave us a spirit of courage and not of fear, and he promised us, he would walk alongside us - that he would never leave us......I have found great strength in that promise and through FINALLY believing whole heartedly in his promises, I was truly set free to fly.

Today, as I contemplate all that has happened between that one sleigh ride to the other, I can say: I owe it all to God, that I can boldly walk forward.....and not be afraid of any bend that might come unexpected, just as the last days have confirmed......I am in the Grip of his Grace and I pray that you my receive this gift of Grace in your lives as well, that together we would spread our wings and fly to the destiny God has prepared and planned for each one of us. 

Praying that my testimony in my previous blogs (http://youschka650220.blogspot.com - Up Close and Personal and http://youschka.blogspot.com - Yielding to the Spirit) may help you in daring to jump off the cliff, into the loving arms of your father - He will either catch you when you fall.....or he'll give you wings to fly!!! He has done both in my life, and it makes me feel absolutely safe and secure in his arms, and with the newest challenges arising, I know, that I will jump again, and I know, that he'll provide all I will ever need, and in his strength I can do whatever comes my way.

Praise God - Amen

The Characteristics of a Hook

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

This new blog seems to be the one, that I thought 'Yielding to the Spirit' was going to be, but God surely had other plans.....stay tuned, this one now will be the one, where I will pass on insights, as God reveals them to me.....

Today I will write about Hooks - we are all hooks for as long as we react to others by them activating our emotional triggers: When someone gets aggressive, and blames us for their issues, and we respond by yelling or screaming for example, and/or justifying our actions to our aggressors. When we respond to the actions of others by reacting with an overflow of emotions, we are a hook to that person (we allow them to hang their backpacks full of unresolved issues on us - just like hooks) - when the other person can aggravate us, we give them the power over our emotions. We act out of a place of very low self esteem. We then become unreasonable, we treat the other person badly or unjustly - out of weakness - we give our ego control over our actions and thus fall out of God's will for us (that's how we know, that we are still slaves to sin and our carnal nature).

When we start living in the confidence God gives us, by believing what he says in his word about us, we are set free and no longer have to be hooks to others. We can then choose to do, what is right. We become aware of our actions, and, what was intended as a stumbling block for us - our antagonist had to make us small, because his or her soul is crushed and hurting - suddenly gets reversed and starts to become a stumbling block for the other person. Any situation always holds a chance for everybody involved - it can become a catalyst for both of you, if you truly want to find answers, to face your challenges and fears. You always have a chance to learn, how to deal with your issues without blaming others.....thus the soul can emerge and your life can become a source of joy and health, because you start to take charge over your emotions.

This in turn gives you a great sense of personal empowerment, but it also opens your heart to what God truly sees in you and enables you to grow into the person, he created you to be - realizing that you were asleep to the true purpose, you were created to embody.

My prayer for you is, that you will choose to open your eyes and ears, to see and hear your true self, your God given identity, and not be bound by reacting to feelings of your ego, that tries to keep you in bondage of hurts of a lifetime. That you will allow the holy spirit, to guide you, I promise you will find healing for all these past hurts, and your soul can take flight. 

My friends, I pray, that you will choose to take ownership of your own actions, and start actively living and stop passively blaming others.

Be blessed - today and always
Amen

Blessings for 2013

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Blessings from my heart to yours - May His Grace live in your Heart throughout 2013, and give you wings to fly. When Grace happens, we do not need to be afraid or worry anymore, we will be set free to follow our dreams and pursue our Heart's Desire.

I am immensely blessed by my faithful reader friends, who followed my previous blogs:
http://youschka650220.blogspot.com - Up Close and Personal (In the Name of the Father)
http://youschka.blogspot.com - Yielding to the Spirit (In the Name of the Father)
http://youschka2012.blogspot.com - Snippets of Wisdom and Truth (In the Name of the Father).

Up Close and Personal and Yielding to the Spirit gives you an account of my own experiences and my personal growth through the challenges in my life - Hoping you will be inspired through these blogs.

Now I want to take the opportunity, to wish you all the best for 2013 - may this year be the one, that brings you closer to the dreams, God planted in your heart, that you never seemed able to forget, even though they seemed unattainable for quite some time. Trust in the Promises, God gives you in His word......He holds your Destiny safe in His hands, and He will guide you there.

His Peace, His Grace and His Joy for you throughout 2013,

Amen