G R A T E F U L

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

That's all that I am.....God is awesome - he has given me this tremendous relief just this morning, I am a changed person, once again..... - Thank you, thank you, thank you, daddy, I am amazed at the level of peace that's flowing through me, as I write these words.... - think about the change for a moment, yesterday I wanted to scream and hide in my hole for a while, if not forever.....

My circumstances are still the same - the iPhone is still screwed up, the weekend is still going to be hard, and the next few weeks will still be busy....but it doesn't matter - I am at peace!!! God has made me see, that he is in Control and that he will provide for every single need of mine - and he also has given me assurance, that he is working in the background to give me my heart's desire!!! I am blown away at such deep love - my shoulders are still hurting from all the stress of the last weeks, but I am positive that this will go away swiftly.

Seeing, how he has strategically placed people around me, to make the load of living bearable - and how he is teaching me, to run to him, when I have to, when I feel weak and when all I want to do is curl up, and be pampered......so far that hasn't been provided a lot, but something tells me, that this is about to change.......I know that I am well on the way to receive my destiny......

You know, looking around me, I often wondered, why is it, that others seem to reach their goals much faster than me..... - well, just this morning, God revealed to me, that had he given me the things I wanted so badly any earlier, I would not have had the full benefit of all that he taught me.....I needed to learn to preservere, despite, whenever I would almost be able to touch my dream to come true, that things would not come through.....but this was, to make sure, that I would not make the dream, the person, or the circumstances my God, but he would always and forever be my source of strength.......

I get it now, daddy, and I love you even more for it - thank you for being so patient with me, and for trusting me so fully, that I would never ever give up.....that I would continue to press forward. Thank you!!! I am giving him all the glory - he created me that way.....he had and still has a purpose for me, and he knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that I would not cave in......he has always seen my full potential and not my flaws and failures - I can assure you, there is many.....

He believed in me, and I could rise to the challenge, because he lives in me - without him, in my own little strength, I couldn't have done it.....thank you, Jesus (aka #loverofmysoul) - you are the absolute greatest beloved, lover and friend!!! I can't wait to meet you face to face......here or there - your timing is right for me.......always and forever, you are in each and everyone around me, and you have shown me how much you love me......I will forever trust you.

Amen - faithfully yours in Christ forever

Acknowledge the negative within you and transform it into something positive

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Again, he has blown me away......you all know, how hard these last weeks were for me, my brain was on a constant overload - scatterbrained is not even describing how I felt.... - I forgot one thing with the other, and my brain was running a thousand miles an hour - well, I think I can say, I know I am on the mend......and that is only, because God has shown me, that he is always with me......

I don't have to know where I am headed in the natural realm, all I need to know, is, that I am headed, where he wants me to go.... - and that whatever I will decide, he will be with me - he will use each and every situation to bring me closer to my destiny.....he has been showing me this for the last year and something now, but I would still fall back and view things from my worldly perspective. This morning, I got it - I don't need to fret, I don't need to have it all together, I don't have to be super woman, no, quite the contrary is true, the more I run to him, when I am overwhelmed, when I have no clue, what to do and where to go, he will take me by the hand, and show me the way - each time I allow him to see my weakness, I give him the chance to come through for me......

And since I get it more fully everyday - this morning, I hope I got it once and for all, that I won't ever put those worldly glasses on anymore - I never liked them to begin with. Just this morning, when I read an e-mail from my ex, where he accused me of always seeing things from the negative angle - whereas I see him being the one, who is always critical and looks through the negative lens - I realized, that truly others are mainly mirroring our own tendencies back to us..... - all we have to do, is to embrace it, and let go of that particular aspect of our being - it's not bad, it's just there and wants to be seen. Once we acknowledge the presence and don't try to push it into our shadow, which ultimately frustrates us, and shows up at moments, when we least need it or expect it - it can finally leave - or even stay, as being discerning (critical) is not a bad thing, neither is being aggressive, angry or a bunch of other emotions that we have labeled bad - it's just how we use it i n our lives that makes it bad. Once we turn it over to God, he can transform it into something beautiful.

I choose Joy, I choose Hope, I choose to see the good in everything, even in the blessings in disguise - I look at others and see myself - and since I know, that in my heart, I have never done anything, but tried to do things right, I have to see that in them as well, and forgive and forget immediately - we are all in the same boat. None is better none is worse - we are all always teacher and student in any life situation.

Let's embrace that: when we think someone is criticizing us unjustly, we have the same tendency within ourselves, when someone loves us, and sees only the good, then we have that in us as well - God wants to purify us, that we will be like him, and he knows, that we need to be rubbed the wrong way for our negative character traits to be removed and purified.....and the ones that are in our lives, that really bring out the worst in us, are actually there, because God wants us to learn the lesson: it's always about us - we need to be transformed from glory to glory - each and everyone here on earth is only responsible for his or her own actions - but we all try to be judges and critics of  our fellow man - that's where we derive our importance from.

I have some very profound news for you: Because you are here, you are important - you have a destiny, because you breathe. God wants you here today, because he has a plan for you.....not for you changing the person next to you, but for you to reach your full potential. He will work in the heart of all his children, to bring them to their destiny. He doesn't need your help :)

And he will provide the same lesson over and over again, until we finally understand, that he is our sole provider and that he has our best interest at heart, even if that means, he has to put difficult, negative, even mean people in our lives...... - well we are all that - but we are also all love, compassion, hope, peace, mercy and forgiveness - let your light shine - that's what you came here for......

I am giving up fixing people and I will forever see only his face in them, and let him do the work in me - what about you, my friends.....???

Be blessed - I love you from the bottom of my heart......
#godissooogood :)

What a considerate and gentle teacher he is :)

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

My dear friends, I have been exhausted beyond measure over the last little - or long while.....the many hats, I am wearing and the many revelations I have been given the privilege to receive.....

Decisions regarding my immediate circumstances - praying and believing, that God is in control and that his promises regarding some of my immediate issues will turn them around for good for those who love him - and loving him I do..... - with all my heart. Actually more and more so every day!!! I have been experiencing restless nights (not like in the past, that I would be worrying about the things running through my head.... - more that I would wake up, and that God would fill my thoughts with wonder, as he explains his beautiful design in more depth to me.....) 

I love spending these moments in deep deep conversation with my daddy in heaven, but somehow all the learning is also taking it's toll on my poor little body.....so two nights ago, as I was a lying awake, listening to what he had to share with me, I asked him, to bless me with a few more hours of sleep, as I was so extremely tired - I could almost feel him feeling sorry, that he had woken me up - you have to understand, since he never sleeps, he never gets tired....., so the minute I had verbalized my prayer request I could feel myself drifting off to sleep - thank you daddy for being so considerate!!!

Had this been another human being, I would have wondered if I had offended him, with God I am never wondering that, for I know, nothing I do or don't do can change his love for me - I have also had the privilege to learn that over the last months in the here and now..... - what a blessing!!!

Knowing that he will turn everything in my life around for good for me, and that he will never ever leave me alone, stranded in this world, brings such tremendous relief. #godissooogood :) I know that, no matter what happens to me tomorrow.....he will be by my side - rejoicing with me or making sure that my pain will subside and heal, depending on the lesson learnt......

Please, my friends, let's collectively choose to trust him, choose Joy instead of negativity - Life instead of death......#godisable to come through for us all the time - and he longs to do it for us.....let him in and share your heart with him!!! 

Prayerfully yours - always

Plan B can become Plan A - and Christ is with you all the way.....Yay!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Here is part 2 of: don't settle for Plan B - sometimes Plan B seems to be the way to go - we have to remember: It's not about this house our the other, big or small, it's not about this country or the other, this trip or that, even this job or the other or other things that you have to decide which direction to go - you may have some favourites..... - and that is okay, too. But the key is, remember, that God is always with you.....Plan A or Plan B, he will never leave you nor forsake you. All he asks you to do, is to give your life, which is the real thing, not a dress rehearsal, your all at any given moment, love with all your heart, plant both feet firmly in the hear and now, then he can make your life what he planned it to be, you will be living your miracle everyday of your life - for we all know, dreams can change - all that is really important: never ever give up dreaming, and don't let other people talk you out of your dream. 

God placed a bunch of dreams within you, and he will help you to reach them - you need to trust him in all circumstances, even if it seems nowhere near possible....God will find a way, where there seems to be no way.

Keep dreaming, keep living at all cost, and trust him with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.....in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight!!! 

When you are attentive to the holy spirit, you will know, that you are in his will - your peace will give it away - the peace that passes all understanding - this peace will guard your mind and your heart, and it will make you finish strong. You can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you.

Today he gave me this promise regarding a few things, that have kept me up at night: Don't worry, girl, I have you covered - I will be with you every step of the way and I will provide the answers you are looking for one step at a time - don't run ahead of yourself.....we will get there....and if need be, I will carry you across the finish line. Give me all your confusion about where to turn, what to do - if you don't have the answer, you don't need it yet - I am with you every step of the way, and I will tell you in due time and then you will understand.....Trust me - I won't ever leave you stranded. 

You can imagine, how teary eyed I was, when he talked to me that way - not that I didn't know that before, but it's nice to hear it - thank you, Jesus, my sweet lover of my soul, I cherish this most amazing and honest relationship that you and I have - I feel safe in your arms. I know, that my dream and my destiny are safe in your most capable hands.

Trusting #theloverofmysoul all the way to the finish line - :)
Amen

Don't settle for Plan B, if Plan A is only a miracle away - #godisable :)

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Amazing indeed, this morning even before I had to get up for church, God was talking to me about this.....he showed me, that I should not settle for Plan B, if Plan A was only a miracle away - for #godisable - and if he promises it, he does it..... - and then, in church, the pastor talked about it again.....tears welled up in my eyes, cause it showed me, that God really means business - he confirms the messages he sends to us - especially when he gives the same message to more than one person at the same time - Amazing!!!

There were a couple of things that he had revealed to me, that pointed me clearly toward that end - and I won't go into too much detail, as it's not relevant to the story - and then he urged me to face my fear regarding something really silly, but I was afraid nonetheless - today I finally did it: got this lawn mower to go, and started mowing the front of the house, and, guess what, I actually enjoyed it....so I was singing at the top of my longs (no one heard me anyway ;)) - and I got the hang of it really quickly.....which again proves: I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.....I did feel his presence with me on this thing and I got the memo: God can do all things through those, he has called according to his purpose - and all things will work together for the the good of them.

I am again blown away, how thoroughly he blows me away.....it's amazing - he never ever ceases to surprise me......so: as for me and my house, we will follow the Lord - always and forever!!!

Oh, how I love these 'God Moments' in my life - the truth truly sets me free every step of the way - and his truth is simply amazing - praying that he would reveal himself to you in the same way..... - and please, friends, don't settle for Plan B, if Plan A is only a miracle away - press forward for your miracle.......he is able and he wants to bless you beyond anything you could ever imagine - #godissooogood :)

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray - I love you.....but there is one, who loves you even more, and that is the triune God himself.

The most astounding pentecostal weekend.....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in his grace - he is your strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Speechless, to say the least......this has been a chaotic weekend on many many levels, but incredibly awesome on other levels......

When I realized, what weekend this last weekend was from a spiritual and christian point of view, I knew that God was up to something amazing - and he has blessed me with revelations galore, deeper understanding of life and life's truth......I know today that he loves me in a very personal way - he is my lover, my beloved and very best friend.....nothing was lost, all my experiences this lifetime have amounted to something good - he has shown me heaven more than once - and  now he has given  me the key to heaven in the hear and now - now I know that I can go there anytime I want and need, and I can stay there for as long as I need and want, in order to live the life he wants me to live. I am still here on earth, more firmly rooted with both feet on the ground, than ever before, but he has given me wings to fly, renewed my mind, changed my point of view.....transformed my thinking patterns......#fromglory2glory!!!

Life will always be life here on earth, there will always be challenges, but I, more than ever before, know that I can find refuge in his arms, when I need to and I am more than welcome to be with him.....but more importantly: I finally realized the most amazing truth, and that is, that he is always with me - I can feel his presence with me ALL the time - when I am stressed, he is near, to lift me up again, when I am happy he is there, to rejoice with me. And when I call upon him for help in times of trouble, he is there and he works behind the scenes, to make things right for me.

Thankfully yesterday, he has blessed me with his sustaining presence at a time, where I needed to stay centred and calm - and I could do it - every day he teaches me, that it is I that need to change, when I am finding myself in adversity - the life around me is just a reflection of who I am at this particular time......and over time, he has replaced the critical lenses with grace filled ones......and he is still at work.

I know, when I feel judged, it's because I am still not all void of any judgment yet.....when I feel the need to justify myself before others, I am still trying to please people rather than pleasing him, who created me..... - I am learning and I am still a work in progress - the good news is: I am not perfect, but I am better than I was last year - and I am FORGIVEN.....and the things where I fall short of his glory, are the things he is refining inside of me, to mould me into his likeness, one step at a time.

When I was playing harp a couple of days ago......I was being criticized for an area in my life, where I am less than perfect.....it was then, that his spirit whispered in my ear, don't get stressed out, my child, you are forgiven - I love you just the way you are.....and I am not going to let go of you because of your failures.....I believe in you....I know you'll finish the race strong, for you are obedient to my calling and no one will be able to disgrace you.

Isn't this just amazing??? A few other things he has taught me over the last couple of months - I will talk about that at a later blog, as I have no idea, how to explain these things just yet, so I need his guidance to show me, when and how to address it, but stay tuned, it's truly liberating.

One little tidbit of information here: In the 10 commandments, God told Moses, that we are not to use his name in vain - it has been understood as a reprimand and a restrictive rule - God revealed to me not too long ago, that it was meant as a promise, that we will never ever use his name in vain.....when ever we call on him, he is there. The institution church has brought us a set of tremendous rules, where God intended promises and a message of love. 

My dear friends, I know I am stretching a few parameters here.....but as you all know, I have surrendered my life fully to Christ (I can not wait to meet him face to face, when he comes to claim me as his own) - and all I do, is to bring Glory to his name alone. It's not about me, it's about him - and since this is my heart's desire, I am sharing in his glory - and I am loving it.

Obedience breeds blessings - and I am not obedient for sake of the blessings - I am obedient to his calling because he has transformed me from glory to glory all my life - and most profoundly over the last 2 years - but to be very very honest, I absolutely appreciate receiving his blessings.

Thank you, Daddy, lover of my soul, for your guidance.....thank you for loving me through my iniquities, for forgiving me at all times - he knows, that when I fail, it's not because I don't want to do it right, it's because I am human..... - I am forgiven in Christ, this is how I am sanctified and in right standing with God - I can never ever merit his grace.....he bestows it on me in the moment I need it the most (when I fail him or those around me) and his grace is always sufficient for me.

Get up and be free, my friends, let's live in the presence of Christ resurrected and le's not stay in this old pattern, of Jesus crucified. God wants to bless you with a life more abundantly - receive it!!!

Amen

I need your Strength my God....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, he lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Gosh, I don't know, but I am in some sort of a tailspin at the moment.....I am finding it hard, to keep my balance in the face of all the things pressing in from all sides - I know deep in my heart, that God will make a way, where there seems to be no way, but a couple of things seem so out of whack, and so hard to handle, that I find myself trying to reason about the probability of these things working out for good.....so this morning my prayer is: Lord, please help me in my unbelief - I have a hard time trusting, that all this will really work out - he has promised me, that I don't have to worry.....but then again, listening to all the people around me, who are still very stuck in the physical limited way of living, I find it extremely hard, to live by his word alone......

Lord, please help me, I need an extra measure of faith right now - please provide for my need. I know, he has rescued me so many times and has provided for my needs a million times, but right now, the enemy is closing in, and I know that the uncertainty, that I feel, is probably just a fraction of the fight that Jesus is fighting for me in the heavenlies - I know that he will give me the mana for one day at a time, that's all I need......so I choose to walk in faith and to press forward to run the race, that has been set before me.....to receive the crown of Glory, when all is said and done.....

Please pray for me, my friends, I truly can use some extra measure of faith right now!!! Don't get me wrong, I am not really doubting his promises - I just find it extremely hard, to stay the course with a lot of rationalism and critical thinking around me......

Praying that my Daddy in Heaven would intervene on my behalf and lift me out of this moment of questioning his promises......... for I know, if there is anyone, who is truly faithful and trustworthy, it's him - the lover of my soul and my sweet daddy in Heaven - who are living inside my heart and who gave me the holy spirit to guide me through life......

I love and trust them with all my heart, and again I shall not lean on my own understanding......today and forever more.

In the powerful name of Jesus
Amen

I am amazed at all he teaches me these days....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear dear friends - God is so good, ALL the TIME - I am simply blown away by all that he teaches me these days.....one very profound thing, that I just realized the other day, is that truly God sees the heart, the motivations, whereas people only see the actions, yet they will give the action a spin of where they are in their lives, what they own experiences have been, and not just objectively look at your actions. God will grow you into mature children of God, in his time - meaning, that we will be brother's and sisters to Christ, once we have learnt what we were meant to learn here on earth - and this is simply, to trust in the Lord with all our hearts and lean not on our own understanding. 

You might remember, that this January I got a tattoo saying exactly that - I used the Bible verse of Proverbs, that says the same thing: Proverbs 3:5-6 - once we have learnt that, he will take us to adventures, you could never ever have dreamt up yourself - he will challenge you, because a lot of what he is going to ask you to do, is very controversial to today's society.....but if you trust him with all your heart, obey his command at all times, he will truly lift you up on wings like eagles.

I cannot talk about some of the things he has asked me to do......but let me assure you, more often than not, I am tempted to say: Oh no, God, I can't do that.....what will my neighbour or the people around me think - but then, when I choose to obey, he lifts me up on wings like eagles - today I fear neither reproach nor criticism of my fellowman anymore, because I know, he has been an outcast in his time - the Pharisees didn't like his teaching, since it was extremely radical and didn't line up with what they were teaching. Well, I can assure you, that was true then, as much as it is true today - but
a) he will protect your integrity, he will sanctify you every step of the way, and
b) he will use you mightily (John 14:12) - for we are called to do the same things that Jesus did, and even greater things.

He literally sends me places, I had not planned to go, just because there is someone, that he might want to touch, reach through me. And remember, he sat with the tax payers, the sinners of all categories - as he came to save the lost - even Paul says in his letter to the Corinthians, that when he was with the gentiles, he found common ground, to interact with them, so that they could relate. I find this exceedingly true to where he leads me.....especially regarding my tattoos - it's so easy to say something encouraging to someone having a tattoo, when you have one yourself, and they will have a much easier time, to believe, you really mean it.

Often God reveals insight regarding the people I encounter, sometimes he doesn't but I know, whatever it is, he will put the words into my mouth, that these people need to hear. He never leaves me stranded and I am most grateful, for being used this way - that all that I do, would bring Glory to his name, as this is what I want to do every day of my life - be his instrument of Love, Grace and Mercy!!! And he surely has granted me this desire of my heart.

I am praying, my friends, that you would let him use you like that - the blessings, that come with being obedient at the onset, are tremendous, mind you I am not doing it for the blessings, I am doing it, because I cannot be out of his will anymore, but I don't mind to receive them - and it saves us a tremendous amount of tears, suffering and pain, if we obey immediately. He is God Almighty and he will never ever let go of any of his children.....he can't stop loving us, just like #JoshGroban sings in his song of his latest CD 'All that Echoes': Happy in My Heartache - He can't stop loving you, that's his nature, that's who he was, who he is, and who he will be for eternity.

May your day be blessed, and may you fully understand, who you are in him: A Victor for Christ, A Warrior for the Kingdom, A Knight in Shining Armour for the Oppressed, A Deliverer of Peace, Love, Joy and Grace - He has a huge plan for you - embrace it today, and allow God to walk this path with you - you will be blown away, by the great things, he can do through you!!!

In the Powerful Name of Jesus Christ, I pray - 
Amen

He is with me ALL the time, EVERYWHERE I go!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Today was a very stressful day for me - actually the last few weeks were, as I have mentioned before.....you might recall my post at or around February 11th, where I shared that something happened, that truly threw me off balance......well, it's with regard to this scenario, that my life is still not quite back to normal - as I said before, I won't be able to go into details.....just this much: I have received I letter on that day, that shook me to the core of who I am.....and I needed several weeks, to address this issue, to get it rectified somehow......and that's where I still am - yet today, God showed me clearly, that he is with me ALL the time and EVERYWHERE I go - as I was going into the city, to keep moving in the right direction, I was talking to him as I was driving, and as I was walking to a meeting I had.

As I lifted a prayer for his guidance, that he would be my rock and my fortress as I went into the meeting, and that he please be with me every step of the way - I heard a very clear voice, saying: I am with you, wherever you go girl, and don't worry I have this under control - you are safe with me.... - and as I was walking, I felt such peace washing over me, and tears of gratitude welling up in my eyes, that I knew deep down in my heart, that this was truly the Lord speaking to me. Wow, do I ever love the relationship we share - he is my provider, he keeps me safe, and he knows my heart inside out, he truly is the lover of my soul - and he is always near - we rejoice together, and we work through the issues of life together.

I pray, my friends, that you would all meet him on such an intimate level - there is nothing about me, that he doesn't know of - all my faults and failures are out there in the open - I can assure you, that I am no saint, and that I still struggle with impatience and a lot of other things- yet I have come a long way over the last few months.....and he is permanently teaching me more about who he truly is.....and all I can say: I have never felt as loved and cherished in my entire life - I know, he is for real, and that he is so very deeply invested in every single detail of my life.... and he will never quit until we finally meet face to face - I love him with all my heart and I pray that you would fall in love with him, too, and that you would feel his loving touch in your lives. He so longs to be with you.....he wants to be your lover and friend in all circumstances.

When we submit to his leadership and when we listen and obey to the promptings of the Holy Spirit, we will truly never be the same - we are then mature children of God, who he can use, to work his miracles through us, in a world that is in such deep need of a saviour.....someone, who is carrying the light into the world - and God longs to use you for his purpose, to heal those in your sphere of influence.....are you ready to let him use you???

I am so in love with him, I know, that I never have to be afraid again, I know, he protects me from the arrows the enemy might aim at me.....he averts their path, and I can stand tall in his promises - my friends, we're all in this together - I am hoping, that my account of his steadfast love for me, and the way he instantly responds to my prayers and needs, will prompt you, to let go and let God take over - place your burdens at the cross...... - I promise you, your life will never be the same, it will be exponentially changed for the so much better - that you will wonder why it was so hard to surrender all of you to all of him in the first place, as you will have received a life so full and abundant that you never believed could ever be possible.....your dreams all of the sudden start to happen around you - and you will literally stand in AWE at what God is doing in your life - and you will be free to fly.....

Please, my friends, join me.....I am having a fantastic time, doing what the Holy Spirit tells me to do - and even if I am still here, and sometimes the going gets tough, he has given me a dignity and a sense of purpose, that I never imagined could be possible here on earth.

I lift this prayer to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords, that he would reveal himself more and more in your life, that you would truly meet the Christ resurrected and know for a fact, that he is the great I am - the one who was, and is and is to come.

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ - Amen