The Mask

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my dear dear friends, my weekend was very very busy - my son danced in a competition all weekend - his group did very well, and the dance studio in general did amazingly well.

On another note it has been a bit stressful, but I am glad, that in the end all the tears and frustrations could be looked at and dealt with - God does provide that kind of scenario in any and all life circumstances, if we only let him take the lead - and when our deepest desire is to be absolutely honest with the ones we're in closer contact with. I love seeing the beauty and genuine love and caring for one another, that emerges, when we don't try to hide behind masks and fears.....but want to get to the root of the problem.

We all have fears and masks, that are in place because of fears, that help us get through life, to sustain life......and I am amazed at how many I have been able to hand over to God, and for him to reach in and to transform them from the inside out over the last 2 or 4 years or even decades. Praise God.

Over the last weeks, I learnt, that I really really really can let go of all control mechanisms, that I had in place.....that I can risk getting close to people, because I trust fully, that my God will not desert me, that he will never ever abandon me or fail me. My dwelling place these days is one of complete Peace - a peace that surpasses all understanding, and is truly not of this world, but of God. People in my sphere of influence do comment about the peace that they sense in me.....and I can only point them to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, the triune God, who deserves all the Glory for my transformation over the last decades....but the biggest transformation happened over the last 2 years.

When I look at the role of the mask, it's purpose is to keep us safe and to sustain our life, at a young age, when we didn't consciously know, what to do, when disaster or difficulty hit us, we formed behaviour patterns, that in light of today my not be valid anymore, but are the only way we know, how to handle stressful situations, That's where the role of Psychotherapy and Somatic Therapy, Counselling in all it's modalities receives Center Stage in today's society. We have so many past hurts and trauma in our lifespan, that we need the help of people, who are trained to make us aware of this mechanisms or masks, to acknowledge them for having been helpful in the past, but with today's knowledge and awareness, we can actually outgrow those sabotaging patterns, and grow into the person, we were created to be in the first place.....

God's Master plan is our return to Paradise with him, where dreams do come true all the time, because he put those dreams in our hearts, and he wants us to succeed - and we are all the masterpieces, he created to achieve this Master plan, redirecting all of this children back into Paradise.

Let's all collectively decide, that we truly want to return to paradise, to dwell in the presence of God Almighty, the triune God forevermore.

That's my prayer for you all today, that we will reach Heaven here on Earth, and that Paradise is attainable here on Earth, because we choose to obey the Holy Spirit in all things, and because we choose to honour God in all things. Trust him, he will lead you home - he is longing to be in a committed and loving relationship!!! Take that step of faith and claim the dream, he placed in your heart - in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray.

Amen

He averts the arrows of the enemy.....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

My friends, I know it has been a very long time..... - it's been two rough weeks for me.....but thankfully God has been faithful, in seeing me through this very draining two weeks.....it was almost as if I was hibernating, dragging through the days, not being able to focus.....really needing a lot of sleep, and the world pressing in on all sides - things that needed my attention, that I had actually pushed further out of my radar than I should have - but enough of that....I am back in the saddle again - Praise the Lord!!!

I cannot really go into detail, what was going on these past two weeks, as this is far too personal - at least for the time being - to talk about in this blog...... - who knows, God might want to reveal it to you later, but for now, I have not been given permission to do so.

Yet, I feel his touch in all that I do - I have complete trust, that he is and forever will avert the arrows, that are intended for evil, and he has definitely done so in the last two weeks. Thanking him profusely for his never ending shelter and love......

I have been facing a lot of judgment regarding my faith lately, and it shook me to the core, that strangers see my  heart of hearts - last Sunday, as we, my children and I went to our friend's church, to witness her baptism, the pastor talked to me after the service, that he could see how much I loved the Lord, how engaged I was, whereas those, that actually should know me better than that, cannot see it, and think I am sleeping with the enemy (which I would never do)...... - but thankfully, I do not live to please people anymore, only God - he is the only one I have to report to, and he sees my heart of hearts and he knows that my motives are pure - Thank you Jesus, for having sanctified and transformed me so amazingly over the last almost 2 years, when I was at an all time low in my life.

The sermon that day has blessed me deeply, as it was referring to the transfiguration of Christ.....and I realized, that indeed I had seen Christ in all his Glory, that's why everything and all in my life has been changed for the so much better. Today I walk in the promises of his word at all times, knowing who I am in him, that no one can shame me any longer and that I am made righteous through Christ Jesus - I am communicating with the #loverofmysoul everyday, all day long - there is no moment in my life anymore, where I don't feel deeply connected at the core of who I am - the song, 'I'd rather have Jesus' resonates in my soul very deeply - I cannot walk through this life without my very best friend and eternal husband by my side.....we go everywhere together, and my daily prayer is, that everybody who would look at me, would actually see Christ - the the power of the resurrected Christ working through me and reaching out to his children through me - at my somatic therapy practice, or in my daily life, at the grocery store, at the gas station.....wherever I go.....

I am extremely grateful for the conversation that I had with my pastor at my church - I have to admit that at first I felt intimidated, but throughout the conversation, I could feel the presence of Christ changing our relationship......I had prayed, that I would not be caught going back into my defensive me, that I was going to stand up for myself, yet net withholding the due respect - I am under his authority and I gladly submit to that authority - yet in the end, I felt we were more friends than adversaries, and for that I am very grateful - you have to know, I do love his preaching and I do love him and his wife dearly, so I am glad we found common ground.....

God is the perfecter of our faith, and he rewrites our story into his story, when we surrender our all to him - and we all have a personal story, and God can use all our stories for his Glory - and we don't know, how he is going to use it in the heart of those who listen or read about it - it's from the heart that we have to try to understand each other's story......for only with the heart can you hear what really is said......we cannot and should not ever try to play God and judge our fellow man, God may have chosen to reveal different things to our neighbour with regards to certain issues.....yet if at the core of it all is the word of God, and Christ having taken up residency in the heart of the believer, there is no way, that there cannot be common ground.

Thank you, my dear heavenly Father, for your great Love and Mercy, that you pour out on all your children, including me. You are the most amazing Creator of all things and I love you so much.

I hope, you feel the same way, too - today, or some day in the future - that's my prayer for you today and always......

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray,

Amen

You have a right to your own space....and others have to learn to respect and accept it....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my friends, I have submerged for a while, and just been drinking in the joy and the love that has come my way the last little while - not that I didn't think about you, and I would have wanted to share about my new found bliss.....but God told me, that this is for me, and solely for me and my man to share..... - it's still all brand new - and I get to simply enjoy, without trying to rationalize anything, putting any label whatsoever on it.... In case you're expecting to get some internal information on the status of this new season in my life, I have to disappoint you.

Yet here is a lot of other things to share.....Just lately I learnt that I do have to make sure, that I distance myself from negative situations in life......and I am ready to do that now, for I also have learnt that I am not helping people to find their true potential, by being to accommodating, actually quite the contrary is true. If I sympathize too much with the people in my life, that emanate negativity, they feel they have a right to do that....and they will never emerge into their more positive selves.

Therefore it's very important, that we stand our ground, and as soon as there is people that violate your space, you have to make sure they notice - sometimes talking about it a good way of dealing with it, sometimes a more subtle way is, to simply be less available, and meet in a different setting. Let's say, if you normally have people over to your house, that actually do not respect you as a person, in your God given uniqueness, then you should meet them at a coffee shop rather than in your house - as this is your space, and people that don't treat you right in your own space, should literally not be invited there.

I know that this might sound harsh, but it's actually beneficial for both sides - it represents a chance for both sides to grow - and maybe in the future these boundaries might not be necessary anymore, because both parties have learnt to respect each other more.

I urge you, please, don't let anybody into your personal space, even the space that represents the space, that makes you feel comfortable, when people stand the right distance away, as they talk to you.....you will always be able to know exactly, if the space they're giving you is right or wrong......if it is wrong, then you will feel uncomfortable to a certain extend, insecure or fidgety.....if that's how you are feeling, you have to either say something, politely asking them to step away a bit, or move away yourself...... - very often we allow others that kind of a violation of our space, because we don't know that we have a right to the space around us, and because people might be coming in uninvited, we think they have the right - but they don't......

I am showing you the ultimate respecter of space and our being, who is Jesus....Jesus stands at the door to your heart, and he knocks and longs to be invited into your personal space, but he would never come in, unless you invite him in, and he will always respect your space, and only come as close as you allow him to. That's what we must radiate into the world out there - respect the space of our fellow man, and not violate their personal sphere (and that means space, as well as belief systems....) Generally the one at work in their hearts is always and only God, through the presence of the Holy Spirit, until Jesus has been invited to take residency in their hearts - it's none of our business, to probe and judge - because we would be judging based on our own belief system, and not according to God's view on their lives.

Hope this has given a bit more enlightenment regarding your innate right to your own personal space, your personal belief system, and that you are entitled to others respect your space.....especially in your own home.

I love you all, and I pray that the God will continue to bless you more and more - you deserve it, and God wants to shower you with all the blessings he is already preparing for you in Heaven....

Be blessed my friends - forever

Love is the ultimate answer - and can bring healing to mankind.....let's move forward to receive ALL that God has for us!!!

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

I am literally in Awe of all the things, God is showing and teaching me these days.....I feel as if I am becoming more and more whole in who I am in the image of God - who he created me to be.....and for that I am extremely and utterly grateful - and by becoming more and more who he creates me to be, I am more and more capable of facilitating the safe ground for my clients and everybody else around me, to become what they have been created to be. God has blessed me with several clients, who I am working with on a regular basis, which fills my heart with huge gratitude.

The blissful sharing on multiple levels with my man, has also liberated my soul, to new shores - I am discovering that I don't have to be afraid of men anymore, that they are genuinely kind and caring - and that unfortunately it's how we as women often treat or see our men, have caused them to retreat into their shells, and be what we want them to be......

Through the revelations I had over the last 3 weeks, I have learnt deep deep truths regarding the true nature of a relationship between a man and a woman - I touched on this subject before, when I was talking about the potential of a sexual encounter and that there lies great healing in it. I want to take this opportunity, to apologize to all the men out there for my criticism and judgmental attitude, that I fostered before - when I was still afraid to get hurt by the male gender.....I was highly judgemental of the concept that men believe every problem can be solved or healed through having sex - I thought that this was pretty arrogant on their part, and that a woman needs more than that. Well, today I know, and I have known it for some time now, that this is absolutely true - yet, I believe it has to be a sexual encounter, where the heart, the body and the spirit all are equally involved - which obviously normally doesn't happen on the first day - we ought to give our relationships time to grow, and be able to reach a deeper level of trust, and then things will happen the way, God intended it to be, when he created Adam and then Eve..... - then there is nothing that cannot be healed through the union of a woman with a man, when it's a connection on all these 3 levels.

And since that is, how God created it to be, that's the potential it holds at all times - we are evolving within ourselves as 3 dimensional beings, we are gradually growing towards being authentic and real....being exactly, how God created us to be, and as such, we will not need to play games anymore and we will not use our own selfish gain when we are with our partner, but see his or her needs and put those before our own, thus laying our lives down for them - that's when blissful relationships can happen, that's when Joy emanates from our souls, that's when we start to radiate the love of Christ to those around us.

Let's corporately move forward to embrace giving rather than receiving, then everybody will receive, and the world will be the peaceful place, it was created to be and we will be able to return to paradise and eat the fruit of the tree of Life.....and dwell in the presence of God forevermore.

In the powerful name of Jesus, I pray that it won't be long now, until this day is here and our reality becomes all that God has for us.

Amen - blessings to you, my friends, from my heart to yours :)

There is Healing in the Wings of Love and Emotion

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet sweet friends, hope you are all having an amazing last week before Easter.....thankfully it's a short week.....I find it very hard, to deal with the remnants of this long winter - sick and tired of the white and wearing boots.....but spring is in the air - my birds are singing beautifully every day, and I know, it can't be long now - Hallelujah!!!

Okay, Thursday's date was amazing - the level of sharing, the heart to heart connection, we have, made this the most amazing date ever......with the anticipation of others just like that or even better. It's good, that we've known each other before, so the basics are settled, we know, what the other stands for - that sure helps in this dating game, that I have to admit, I have no real knowledge of - I have not dated for ages.....if I ever even did!!!!

In the course over the last days, I have learnt, that God has an amazing plan - one even more amazing that I had ever dreamt about myself. He is teaching me, that we can only rise as far, as our own limitations let us, or our prejudices and judgemental attitudes. Yet, when we are in Christ, we are free - there is no limits to God - try not to put yourself in chains....

I have been freed from several of my preconceived ideas of what is right or wrong - and I am now free to receive and enjoy ALL God has for me - and I am willing to risk it all for Love. Thank you, my sweet Love, for being who you are, for accepting me, for who I am. You are simply amazing.

Saturday night I had tickets for #CharlotteChurch - what a voice - when I listened to her, the lyrics, but most of all her powerful voice, I could tell, she had found herself, I could hear it in the depth of emotion she could portray - just breathtaking, I could literally feel the Holy Spirit move in this bar, touching hearts, healing hearts - including mine. I was in tears and my heart skipped a beat several times - something snapped into place - something, where there was a disconnect before, had now connected. I can't explain exactly what happened, and I only understand in part, but all I need to know, is, that God is constantly at work in all of us, to heal our hearts and souls - and that can happen anywhere.....in a bar, in an opera house, in nature, anywhere - God knows your address, and he knows where you are at any given moment - so he brings you, where you have to be......healing you on the way :), using everything and everyone, to bring you closer to wholeness in him.

I can't wait, to see, where he is taking me next - good thing I am fine, drifting through space in the unknown, not needing to have a plan.....just going with the flow - being in the flow of life, following God's guidance through the Holy Spirit, not being afraid of anything.....just rejoicing in God and giving him the Glory for every good gift, he has given me.....including #myMan :).

Okay, for those of you, who you are out there and waiting for love to find you.....it can and it will happen, in God's time - and when it does happen, trust God, that he will be your guide and don't run away from the gift you have been given..... - I am praying for you, for courage and strength, to step out in faith, to reach out to receive all he has prepared for you - for no eye has ever seen, no ear has ever heard, what God has prepared for those who love him. I encourage you, trust and jump off that cliff..... - I know, he'll give you wings to fly :) - he has done it for me!!!

I am flying and I am utterly enjoying it - in the powerful name of Jesus, I pray

Amen

Where do you lead me, my God...

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet friends, I am in a bit of turmoil today (last Thursday :)), as I can feel the Lord preparing me for something.....I am reading old journals, realizing, that in 1994/1995 and 1997 I have been where I am today, very much in tune with God, listening to the Holy Spirit and obeying his call on my life. Reading my Prayer Journal, shows me, that somewhere in the time between 1997 and 2011 I have lost touch....I don't really quite understand why - I can come up with a few ideas:

1. Giving up my dream, to be reunited with the one, I knew, God had brought into my life for a greater  purpose - he had been granting me my biggest wish, to meet the man, he had for me - he brought him to me in 1995 - unfortunately, we messed up.....

2. Giving up on many of my values and dreams of how I wanted to find true love - settling for good enough.....cause I thought I wasn't valuable enough for an above the line kind of relationship, as none had ever happened over the years.

Today I know, that this has been the devil's form of identity theft, that he is so brilliant at conveying to us......in retrospect, I know, that none of this was true.....for I know today, that I have left several men stranded, out of fear of not measuring up, out of insecurity. I could have chosen either one, but I hadn't found my true identity in Christ just yet..... - thankfully these are the things of the past. Today I know, whose I am, and who defines my worth - the one, who created me in the first place, the one who created me his masterpiece, the one who bestowed Dignity and Respect upon me. Thankfully today I walk in this truth and it has set me free.

Yet, looking back, and taking stock, where I am today, there have been dreams, that never came true, some that are just about to emerge - I am on my road to my destiny, that I know, for a fact.

Today, when I read my heartfelt prayers, for the one, that I had thought to be the one for me, I cried....for all these years, we have not been given a chance to reconnect.....probably out of fear again - his or mine, I don't know. Yet today I am just stepping out in faith, into dating again.....the one that I reconnected with - or maybe I should say, who reconnected with me, is one that I am realizing today, that not only did I have a huge crush on him a quarter of a century ago, but that I truly cared already then - so we'll see, where this is going - all I know is, that he makes me feel seen, heard, and cared for - and this is such a gift - one I was rarely given, or maybe one I wasn't able to receive before, due to fears in the deepest parts of my heart - thankfully, Jesus has come in and healed my heart, and now I am finally ready to receive. 

So now I am praying, that I would not get carried away, but stay my course with God keeping Center Stage (his rightful place) - praying and hoping, that my man will accept, that I am all and foremost God's daughter.... - I want to never compromise this, my first love - I hope he understands that.

For any man, without God won't do it for me, I can't do that - I surrender tonights date into the most capable hands of my beloved Daddy in heaven, I know, he is ultimately in control - and I feel that he has brought us here, so he will see us through.....

Trusting.......again, standing at the cliff and jumping off.....into the arms of the one, who holds my tomorrow - knowing full well, that he will either catch me, or he will give me wings to fly.

This takes all the strength I have - and I need all his strength, to jump.....but I am ready.... to receive all my Daddy has for me. - My prayer for tonight is for the Strength and the Peace we can only find in Christ and the Guidance of the Holy Spirit along with the Blessing of the Father....

In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray - Amen - 
I love y'all, my sweet friends :)
May God continue to bless you.

Always on a Divine Appointment...

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Hello my sweet friends, it has been a while since my last post, and a lot has happened. I had my first two sessions with a client of mine, and several more booked in the weeks to come. I had great meetings last Friday.....one of them a breakfast meeting with the Rotary Club of my hometown - now, you have to listen to this: The guest speakers were Acclaim Health Canada - and they reminded me about one thing, that I wanted to pursue, when my cousin died in a car accident. I wanted to get involved in palliative care, to help chronically ill people, to help the transition to death for those are close to passing over - Yet I never pursued this....I guess, partly because I had a child at the time, and partly, because somehow I had sacrificed many of my innermost dreams and desires to hold the torch in my marriage - thus ultimately being reduced to merely existing, and having lost all joy in life.

So, last Friday, I was reminded of this dream, and I got the phone number that I need, to follow up and receive volunteer training, and incorporate this into my life. It's touched me to the core of my being - I was literally in tears.... - I know that this is part of God's plan for me..... - that's why I got invited to this breakfast and this is also, why this was the only week I could go. God wanted to remind me. Here is another piece, that makes this even more of a divine appointment: today I can serve the people that God will bring my way even better, now that I even have a background in Somatic Therapy.

My sweet Daddy is the best orchestrator of my life - and he is for your life as well - it all is falling into place - and I am immensely grateful for all that he is doing for me.....for all the people he brings into my life, that have a special message or purpose for me.....as well as that he brings me into their lives, to give them his message of love.

Other things have happened, that right now make me extremely happy - I will tell you about that another time (it's still too new for me, to actually share it here), but he's proven to me again, how invested he is in every little detail of my life.

My friends, I pray, that you will choose to follow him, and that you receive his amazing gift of Grace wholeheartedly and that you would grant him citizenship in your heart.... - you ought to know, that he is already there, knocking at the door of your heart (he has never ever left you), but he needs to know, he is welcome and that you make room for him in your heart.

I love you so much, and I know, he loves you even more - 
Sending you a huge big virtual hug and blessings
from my heart to yours