My friends, I know it has been a very long time..... - it's been two rough weeks for me.....but thankfully God has been faithful, in seeing me through this very draining two weeks.....it was almost as if I was hibernating, dragging through the days, not being able to focus.....really needing a lot of sleep, and the world pressing in on all sides - things that needed my attention, that I had actually pushed further out of my radar than I should have - but enough of that....I am back in the saddle again - Praise the Lord!!!
I cannot really go into detail, what was going on these past two weeks, as this is far too personal - at least for the time being - to talk about in this blog...... - who knows, God might want to reveal it to you later, but for now, I have not been given permission to do so.
Yet, I feel his touch in all that I do - I have complete trust, that he is and forever will avert the arrows, that are intended for evil, and he has definitely done so in the last two weeks. Thanking him profusely for his never ending shelter and love......
I have been facing a lot of judgment regarding my faith lately, and it shook me to the core, that strangers see my heart of hearts - last Sunday, as we, my children and I went to our friend's church, to witness her baptism, the pastor talked to me after the service, that he could see how much I loved the Lord, how engaged I was, whereas those, that actually should know me better than that, cannot see it, and think I am sleeping with the enemy (which I would never do)...... - but thankfully, I do not live to please people anymore, only God - he is the only one I have to report to, and he sees my heart of hearts and he knows that my motives are pure - Thank you Jesus, for having sanctified and transformed me so amazingly over the last almost 2 years, when I was at an all time low in my life.
The sermon that day has blessed me deeply, as it was referring to the transfiguration of Christ.....and I realized, that indeed I had seen Christ in all his Glory, that's why everything and all in my life has been changed for the so much better. Today I walk in the promises of his word at all times, knowing who I am in him, that no one can shame me any longer and that I am made righteous through Christ Jesus - I am communicating with the #loverofmysoul everyday, all day long - there is no moment in my life anymore, where I don't feel deeply connected at the core of who I am - the song, 'I'd rather have Jesus' resonates in my soul very deeply - I cannot walk through this life without my very best friend and eternal husband by my side.....we go everywhere together, and my daily prayer is, that everybody who would look at me, would actually see Christ - the the power of the resurrected Christ working through me and reaching out to his children through me - at my somatic therapy practice, or in my daily life, at the grocery store, at the gas station.....wherever I go.....
I am extremely grateful for the conversation that I had with my pastor at my church - I have to admit that at first I felt intimidated, but throughout the conversation, I could feel the presence of Christ changing our relationship......I had prayed, that I would not be caught going back into my defensive me, that I was going to stand up for myself, yet net withholding the due respect - I am under his authority and I gladly submit to that authority - yet in the end, I felt we were more friends than adversaries, and for that I am very grateful - you have to know, I do love his preaching and I do love him and his wife dearly, so I am glad we found common ground.....
God is the perfecter of our faith, and he rewrites our story into his story, when we surrender our all to him - and we all have a personal story, and God can use all our stories for his Glory - and we don't know, how he is going to use it in the heart of those who listen or read about it - it's from the heart that we have to try to understand each other's story......for only with the heart can you hear what really is said......we cannot and should not ever try to play God and judge our fellow man, God may have chosen to reveal different things to our neighbour with regards to certain issues.....yet if at the core of it all is the word of God, and Christ having taken up residency in the heart of the believer, there is no way, that there cannot be common ground.
Thank you, my dear heavenly Father, for your great Love and Mercy, that you pour out on all your children, including me. You are the most amazing Creator of all things and I love you so much.
I hope, you feel the same way, too - today, or some day in the future - that's my prayer for you today and always......
In the powerful name of Jesus Christ, I pray,
Amen
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