Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....
Hello friends, I am absolutely dumbfounded, speechless, amazed and blown away, at what God has done for me......He wants my Heart, even though he owns the whole universe. Wow, how amazing is that???
Over the last little while, ever since I signed up for the Date Night at my church, I couldn't help but wonder, if God was going to grant me my miracle that night.....that the #LoverOfMySoul would finally return for me - I am speaking of the one I have loved for the last 18 years...... - well, since I have had that feeling already a couple of times since this summer, when our connection was restored somehow - I am believing that he has chosen to surrender his life to Christ that day.....I am not sure, but somehow, that's the only explanation I can find (not that I need to know what happened, all that matters is, that it did) - anyhow, I needed to make sure, that I wasn't going to be devastated if he didn't show up......so I went to the dinner, with #LisaTimney and #PatrickTimney singing a potpourri of the most beautiful love songs from the best musicals of our time, expecting nothing.
When I got there, I found a seat with people I had never personally met (mind you, I was a bit late..., so I couldn't mingle before and find friends to sit with) - the dinner was nice, and the music had me crying again - good thing, the light was dimmed, so people didn't see me crying. I loved the candle light atmosphere and I had some very nice conversations with the people at my table and talking to some friends throughout the evening.
When I got home, I wasn't sure, what God had in mind with this evening, I couldn't put my finger on it just yet......but he has shown me later during the night, and this morning, that our life here on Earth is only about to learn to love him - it's not about who we are with, it's about whose we are, it's not about making money, it's about fulfilling his purpose for our life, in my case, it's not about being a sought after therapist, it's about healing the people, he brings my way - for that I don't even need an office, I can just follow my innate navigation system, and listen to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, and to go where he is leading me - and then be his hands, feet, hugs and smiles, that this world needs.
One of the happenings of last week was, that on Thursday February 7th, I got a phone call from one of the owners from the Spa and Wellness Center, where I had the room that I was going to use as my therapy office - well, they're closing down shop......while I was really sad, that they decided to not hang on to their own dream for a little while longer, I wasn't worried for my office - I know, that, if God ordains it, he will bring it about, but that I was too fixed on the idea of having an office. Now God revealed to me, that it's not about the office, it's about healing the ones he brings to me - wherever that might be. Got it, Lord...... - I'll do it, you show me where and what, and you do the how. I am still exploring other office options, but in the meantime, I will make house calls, meet in coffee shops, restaurants, wherever the client is comfortable to meet. I know, God is in control and my journey has only just begun.
It's not about making a living, cause he will provide for ALL our needs, but to live a fulfilled life, it's about bringing Glory to his name, reflecting Christ to the people around us - nothing else. He will ask you to do the what and the where - the how, is his domaine.
It's not about where you live, it's about making a difference in the lives of the people where you are. It's not about finding yourself, it's about finding out, who he created you to be.
It's not about loosing weight and fitting the demands of the world - it's about living healthy, and honouring the temple that God can dwell in.
It's not about saving souls, cause Christ finished that 2000+ years ago - it's about being Christ to them, being his hands, feel, hugs and smiles, making a difference in their lives through reflecting Christ, being transformational in their lives - that they want, what you have :)..... (love them back into the kingdom of God).
Once you tasted love, it's just the beginning and he will take you on a ride, that you could never have dreamt up yourself - okay, Daddy, I am ready to fly away with you, wherever you might take me. My heart has been yours for the last 20+ years, you took residency in my heart almost 18 years ago - actually that was only the moment that I finally realized it....for you had been there all my life..... - you never ever left, even though I messed up big time, when I didn't turn to you, when I thought all hope was lost, when the #LoverOfMySoul walked out of my life and got married to someone else. When I thought, the struggle with my firstborn son, was somewhat your punishment for doing all the things I never wanted to do - like sleeping with a man, before I was married, looking for approval of people rather than your approval, complaining about my circumstances, blaming others for my circumstances.... - I was wrong, when I did that, I apologize - Please Please Please forgive me!!!!
Yet all the while, you just wanted me to finally find my way into your open arms, let you hold me tight and wipe away all my tears - so you stayed in my heart, waiting, what I would do, when I would return to where I belonged - Well, Daddy, your prodigal daughter is home for good. Never ever will I make a tiny step out of your will. I know, when I delight in you, you will grant me my heart's desire......being reunited with the love of my life - Yet Father: Your timing is perfect for me......., I will no longer try to make things happen on my own anymore, I trust your ways and your timing forever more. I know, I am home for good.
Funny, after I had this HUGE CHANDELIER going on inside of me this morning, I received a facebook message from a friend of mine from High School, saying 'Happy Birthday' to me - my first impulse was, to say thank you, but to tell him, that my birthday wasn't until next Wednesday - the Spirit whispered into my ears, that actually today was my birthday - that today the rest of my life, in communion with the Holy One of Israel has begun.
I don't know, where my Daddy is taking me, but I sure like the ride so far - it feels like going to the fair with my daddy, having him buy me these gingerbread hearts, with the beautiful message on them, going on roller coaster rides and on haunted mansion rides (even if to this day they still somewhat creep me out), but with my Daddy I don't have to be afraid - we're having a blast at the fair.....or maybe even Canada's Wonderland (who knows). I know, I can trust my Daddy with my Heart's Desire and that he has only my very very best interest at heart, so I will never ever go astray again.
He's given me my birthday presents already - how amazing is this, that I get to celebrate today with my heavenly family, tomorrow with my sister and her girls - then on Wednesday with some of my sisters in Christ here on earth - next Saturday I am going to the Opera with my twin brother, and the day after, there will be a dinner with my special sisters in the Lord , the ones that stood by me, when now one else would, being there for me in my time of need - with one of them hosting the event, and another one playing the harp for us. This is Heaven indeed.
I have never had a deeper peace in my heart than I have right now. Thank you Jesus, for hanging on and for being this close and always being ready to come to my rescue.
My Prayer for you today is, that you would be able to fully surrender to his will, trust him with your heart, that you would be able to be obedient, whenever the Holy Spirit asks you to do something or be someone to those around you, that you would delight in him always and that we would all be granted our heart's desire - lovingly prepared by the one, who created us in his image.
In the powerful name of Jesus,
Amen
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