Finances.....

Embrace your Destiny and walk in His Grace - He is your Strength when you are weak, He lifts you up when you can't reach.....

Good Afternoon dear friends, I am just blown away, about, how fast my Daddy's responses come to me - yesterday, as I was driving with my little munchkin to the Opera - what an Amazing Amazing Opera - 'La Clemenza di Tito' shook me to the core of my soul.....playing out the struggles of the heart regarding Love, Forgiveness, Mercy and Betrayal - really really deep work - and the music was just divine.....too bad no harp this time - but that might be a topic of another blog - or not....just as God will have me write for his Glory alone.

Okay, so on the drive to the City, I was talking to God about finances, as I have been facing some financial struggle over the last few months......and I sensed, that I had to take this situation one step further, and submit it into his care.....

Yet I sensed a resistance in me, due to the world views about finances, that I grew up with - my father was the sole provider for the family - an absent one at that, who was a workaholic, to numb his need for a fulfilled family life (he didn't know, how to show emotions, unless through providing for his family, and giving gifts to those he loved, which in itself is not a bad thing, but it was often carried out in a bad way (with strings attached). Don't get me wrong, I am not judging, just stating a fact. He so desperately needed to be loved, that he thought he had to buy love.... You had to catch him at a good moment, when he was in a good mood, if you needed something - if he wasn't in a good mood, chances were, you asked in vain.

Well, I have been working in my father's business for almost 17 years, and as such, my main income was coming through my work for him. That in itself is also not a bad thing, but lately God has been telling me, that I had to rely on him for the provision of ALL my needs, and to let go of the safety net, that came from my earthly father...... - OOOOPS, this needs a huge step of Faith, completely trusting him with ALL my sources of income. That's were the resistance came - I have never ever been able to completely trust anyone other than my earthly father, to provide for my needs. You know, I am not overspending (okay, okay, maybe sometimes - but not to a great extend anyway) but I have a huge responsibility regarding my children's school and extra curriculum activities, and the house we live in, etcetera.....

My Dad and I had a special arrangement regarding the cost for everything that concerned the house -  yet lately I have been left stranded, trying to cover it all by myself...... - now here comes Jesus, and challenges me, to trust him and him alone. Can I change my ways of thinking, that all and everything has always come from my earthly Dad, into believing that he will do it, and that all and everything came from him all along??? I want to, but can I???

I sense that this is yet another milestone in my obedient walk with Christ alone, him my sole provider. Yet this morning, my Daddy answered through the sermon at my church. We have to be generous to the church and the body of Christ, and he will fill all our needs and even more - we will be able to give away more, if we obey.

Okay - you all know me, I can't live life any other way anymore, than being absolutely obedient - so I will put him to the test - as he urges us in Malachi 3.....I will give freely, not looking at the numbers in my bank account. Trusting that he will provide and that he will fill my storehouses to overflowing. He will probably blow my mind by the amazing ways, that he is going to do it - as I don't have an inkling of an idea at the moment. Yet, trustingly and obediently I will jump off this cliff, and I know, He will catch me AND give me wings to FLY!!! 

Are you joining me??? Praising God for his faithfulness.
Be blessed my friends - today and always, 
Amen