Hello my dear friends, if you are following me on twitter or are my friends on Facebook, you are probably wondering, what has happened, what are the challenges, I need all the strength I can get from the #LoverOfMySoul, to face. Well, I cannot really tell you at this moment, but it's definitely been a blow to my existence - or should I say, that's what the evil one would like it to be - but he has no chance this time, to make me even consider to trip, and let go of my faith (like he could last year around this time - thanks to God, who has strengthened me considerably over the last year, I am nowhere where I was last year) - but nonetheless I am weary, and the last years have definitely taken a toll on me.....I am weak, and all I want to do is lean into some strong arms, to hold me, and to assure me that all is going to be good.
Yesterday after I had read the letter that has dealt me this blow, I ran into the arms of the one, who holds my tomorrows - and it was absolutely amazing, to just let my guards down, and to admit to weakness and the need to be held and comforted - it was at the exact place, where we had our first date just a week before. I am so grateful for his presence in my life.
I know, the evil one has tried to seize me, to put fear into my heart - to no avail!!! The one who is in me and I am in him, is stronger than the one, who is in the world - there is no doubt about this. I am still distressed, because I have to get into action mode, but the situation is not hopeless - that it never can be, for I know, who is for me, so no weapon fashioned against me shall prosper, Cause God loves me so much, that he will protect me, and we will be standing triumphantly in the end. I am not troubled - this time I know, it's blessings in disguise, cause up unto now, whenever there were high waves raging, when the sea was calm again, the view got clearer and I could see much farther into the distance, and Heaven here on earth seemed to be so much closer.
I know, God wants me to trust in him alone, in all matters of my life - and this time there have just been one too many blows in too short of a time - yet, it shows me, he believes I can handle it, in his strength - and in Christ I can do all things, and now that the #LoverOfMySoul is so near, almost close enough to touch, how could I not say, that all is well with my soul???
Remembering all God's Promises and declaring them over my circumstances, I know will move mountains. Weeping only lasts for a night (yesterday night found me again crying uncontrollably, asking the Lord, to come for me, and set me free forever, to take me home for good) but today my eyes are clear, and I look the challenge straight in the eye, knowing that my God is bigger than this challenge, and he will lead me to still waters, and I get to rest and be still and know, that he is God!!!
My friends, I know, life sometimes can seem so tough, but over my past, I have learnt two things:
1) When God brings you to it, he will provide the grace, strength and peace to get through it.
2) When God allows it, there is a gift for you in it - and I know it won't be long, until I find out, what his gift is for me this time.
Hang in there, often, when it seems as if you are going to break under the load you're bearing, God is working the most behind the scene for you to give you your heart's desire.
This brings me to the closing for this post: My friends and I will be starting a bible study this Thursday, and I can only suggest the book: 'Your Heart's Desire' by #SheriRoseShepherd - may her insights bless you much.
In the powerful name of Christ, I say good-bye for now.
